Sociopath

I want to share my blog. I have waited 58, soon 59 years to tell my story. If you are willing, please read and tell your stories too.
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So, the weekend was insane. Not sure how to deal with it right now. Although O believed I am getting along "ok" considering tge circumstances, I woke up in the middle of the night and seriously thought I was dying. I couldn't breath for a moment, my chest hurt and my heart was racing. I was scared to go back to sleep after that and decided to go straight to the doctors in the morning and get my heart and lungs checked. This morning I felt better, I can breath without a problem and have no more pain. Could it have been a panic attack? I have an appointment with my GP next week and will speak to him about it, but maybe someone on here has experienced the same? #PanicAttack #Depression #NarcissisticAbuse #Sociopath #Anxiety

Beth Crowly - I am not nothing

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#PsychologicalAbuse #Depression #psychopath #narcissist #Sociopath #ChronicPain

Although I knew it for many years, I didn't want to believe it. After finally standing up for myself yesterday, they showed their true colours. I finally, after 37 years, saw clear. Although I knew it deep inside, I am shocked, I am hurting, I am confused. So much makes sense now though. And no, I am NOT crazy, they are psycho. These feelings are horrible, I feel so weak right now, I feel broken, sad, angry, frustrated, confused... But: I am thankful for yesterday... Is this a step forward? All this had to happen, for me to finally see clear and complete free myself from their abuse. I have beem ill for some years now... Did I allow myself to get ill because I felt weak, because I felt pain I didn't completely understood, because I was programmed to feel guilt, worthless and because I felt unloved. Have I subconsciously be hating myself so much, not understanding what I did wrong to be treated this way my whole life, that I am subconsciously punishing myself? It took 37 years for this to come out. The truth, these feelings, realising I am not crazy. 37 years!!! No wonder I am ill. I am. Hurting real bad, but I believe this could be a step in the right direction. May my mind and body heal #LymeDisease #psychopaths #NarcissisticAbuse #Sociopath #ChronicPain #awakening #Healing

Meeting them a lot last time. What would you do?

I allowed my ex boyfriend back into my life after continuously being screwed over over and over and over again. I was blind to his games and different personas. He would make me feel so loved and wanted and then as soon as he knew he got me, he just turns into a different person. Hanging out was only on his time, he demanded I give him my adhd medicine, asked for me to do his homework, and used me for all the emotional support he could get but never reciprocated. Each time this happens I am left drained and confused , what more could I have done to be enough ? All the times I was trying to prove him to be a better person, he was just running his agenda and calculated moves. I’ve come to terms with the fact that I’ve been talking to a person who just wears a different mask to get a different favor from me. I still think of the good times and cry hard. My time was wasted, I was taken for a fool, I could have moved on but I got sucked back in. I feel so empty and hollow, I can’t seem to fully grasp that I was so manipulated and used for so long and I was so blind to it. I feel ugly, worthless, fat, and someone incapable of being loved. I just need some kind words right now.

My mother is a sociopath. I read the post about narcissistic parents and saw some similar traits that my mother has. I am now 52 years old and suffer with borderline personality as a result...any thoughts from other members #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Sociopath

Other than “leave them”, does anyone have any #Advice for a #depressed #anxious #cutter with #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder (me), in an #AbusiveRelationship with a #narcissist (possibility a #Sociopath ).
I cannot end the relationship. I just need to learn some (more) #copingmechanisms