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A best friend does NOT kick you when you're down...not even subtley.

Original post: Dual Diagnosis -- Autism & CPTSD

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Do you know Kerry?

Yeh, you know her, we all have known or currently know a girl like Kerry.

Kerry is so charismatic, fun and intoxicatingly charming, but look a little deeper and you will see she is just intoxicatingly toxic and that's where the fun stops.

Do you often feel like you are walking on eggshells with this girl careful not to trigger one of her famous mood swings which are never pleasant.

Kerry loves to help you out but remember there are always strings attached, you will be forever listening to stories repeated about how she did this for you or that for you, making sure you are always owing her something, this is a transactional ‘friendship’.

Let me tell you from my personal experience with Kerry, she will always want more of your time, energy and soul, you will be surprised at how much one person can take from you, while still making you feel you are in their debt.

You're just going to keep going around in circles with her.

You don’t have to wait for something unforgivable to happen before you cut ties, you will always look like the bad guy in her narrative regardless.

She is careless with your mental health and ultimately selfish.

You need to do what is best for you because that’s what she would do in a heartbeat, in fact that’s what anyone should do always.

You don’t need her, end it now or it will end in tears, your tears, because to the Kerry’s of the world you are always disposable.

I hope you realize your worth and next time you meet Kerry; I hope you just keep on walking.

I wrote this two years ago and ignored my own advice and instead of walking past Kerry I walked straight back into the toxic cycle.

Oh she is good this Kerry girl, please don’t even bother with the Kerry's in your life, when you let her back in she will love bomb you and bend over backwards at first.

But it will not last, the passive aggression, the manipulation, toying with your emotions and the general head games are on their way, oh I have no doubt about that.

The power is within you to open your eyes and stop people pleasing, burying your head in the sand will only prolong the inevitable suffering and the general toxicity.

This time I had my eyes wide open and honestly no matter how many times I stood up for myself, it made no difference, the tricks got more devious, the lies more believable, but when you have your eyes open your intuition, your gut feeling screams at you ‘Get Out while you still can.

Thankfully I didn’t wait to be stabbed in the back this time to make my exit from the malicious cycle, I knew it was coming, so I saved myself from the pain and cut all contact. No explanation just blocked and deleted.

Please follow your intuition and do not wait for the inevitable betrayal, Kerry doesn’t give a damn, so take a leaf out of her book and stop giving a damn about her and give a damn about yourself and your own happiness.

Do you know Kerry?

Yeh, you know her, we all have known or currently know a girl like Kerry.

Kerry is so charismatic, fun and intoxicatingly charming, but look a little deeper and you will see she is just intoxicatingly toxic and that's where the fun stops.

Do you often feel like you are walking on eggshells with this girl careful not to trigger one of her famous mood swings which are never pleasant.

Kerry loves to help you out but remember there are always strings attached, you will be forever listening to stories repeated about how she did this for you or that for you, making sure you are always owing her something, this is a transactional ‘friendship’.

Let me tell you from my personal experience with Kerry, she will always want more of your time, energy and soul, you will be surprised at how much one person can take from you, while still making you feel you are in their debt.

You're just going to keep going around in circles with her.

You don’t have to wait for something unforgivable to happen before you cut ties, you will always look like the bad guy in her narrative regardless.

She is careless with your mental health and ultimately selfish.

You need to do what is best for you because that’s what she would do in a heartbeat, in fact that’s what anyone should do always.

You don’t need her, end it now or it will end in tears, your tears, because to the Kerry’s of the world you are always disposable.

I hope you realize your worth and next time you meet Kerry; I hope you just keep on walking.

I wrote this two years ago and ignored my own advice and instead of walking past Kerry I walked straight back into the toxic cycle.

Oh she is good this Kerry girl, please don’t even bother with the Kerry's in your life, when you let her back in she will love bomb you and bend over backwards at first.

But it will not last, the passive aggression, the manipulation, toying with your emotions and the general head games are on their way, oh I have no doubt about that.

The power is within you to open your eyes and stop people pleasing, burying your head in the sand will only prolong the inevitable suffering and the general toxicity.

This time I had my eyes wide open and honestly no matter how many times I stood up for myself, it made no difference, the tricks got more devious, the lies more believable, but when you have your eyes open your intuition, your gut feeling screams at you ‘Get Out while you still can.

Thankfully I didn’t wait to be stabbed in the back this time to make my exit from the malicious cycle, I knew it was coming, so I saved myself from the pain and cut all contact. No explanation just blocked and deleted.

Please follow your intuition and do not wait for the inevitable betrayal, Kerry doesn’t give a damn, so take a leaf out of her book and stop giving a damn about her and give a damn about yourself and your own happiness.

Well this week has eventually just gotten too much for me ,was meant to get the keys to our new house this week and 3 times half hour before due to collect its been cancelled, the house is needing fully painted and is a bit of a riot , I had been planning to start it all right away .Because we're moving to it from temporary accommodation I have to get everything for the house ,all furniture, flooring,paint,everything plus for myself and kids that we need as nothing is provided by the house no white goods,flooring nothing .
I had arranged to get things that were being given away from free by a van and have now lost all them due to them cancelling me getting the keys today ,I ahd bene promising the kids they would se etheir new home each day as I was expecting tk get the keys and to get them excited for it too to only have to be told no again and feel like I'm disappointing them Iver and over again.Its now 3 days to Christmas she's said I will get them today but I am not holding my breath.I had been so excited and looking forward to getting it started and now I just feel completely deflated.The fact of everything that we've bene through past 6 months ,having to be in temporary accommodation and the kids constantly asking how long we're here,feeling frustrated because it's not our home and can't be settled to then for the past 7 weeks be told we're actually getting our own house and going to bed every night this week thinking that tomorrow will be the day we get the keys and can finally have a fresh start to then keep being let down has just gotten too much and ruined all the excitement I had with it .I am praying I get them later today (it's 1am here)
But I have lost all hope that I will which then means it will be another 2 weeks before I would due to the holidays and everything being closed .

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This is our new little family member Coco 💜🐶 ,she is only 9 weeks old and is so tiny ,she fits in my hand .She was neglected and treated horribly , she had skin issues due to poor care , she was severely underweight and malnourished,she also had infections due to the lack of care and abuse she endured,the vet said had I not taken her and got her the medicine and care she needed she wouldn't have made it much longer. She is still very timid and has a long way to go to be a healthy happy little pup but the difference in her already from just having lots of love and care is massive.She has started getting excited now when I walk into the room, she is coming over to me and snuggles in to fall asleep showing she's started to trust me and feel safe.Her skin has all more or less cleared up and she's showing more signs everyday that she is becoming more alert and more comfortable and settled with us .It breaks my heart that anyone could do this to animals and treat them so horribly.But I am so glad we have her now and hopefully shel be better and healthy in no time & it feels amazing now that we have her and are moving into our new home 💜🐶
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So after a good few days with new excruciating pain in my side and back I went to hospital lastnight ,I have a severe kidney infection ,and dehydration after getting fluids etc I managed to talk them in to allowing me hone to rest as its the little ones birthday tomorrow, I have enough going on and I'm back I next week for few more skin cancer biopsies. So have even given antibiotics, hydration sachets , and more painkillers.if it doesn't improve in 48 hours I have to go back in .So I am on strict bed rest and to be honest I can barely move I'm doubled over In pain so couldn't do anything even if I wanted to.

Feel so fed up ad it's just constant health issues ,my body is already weak and not strong enough to fight this infection which is why its worse.

Just feel very overwhelmed with the things I already struggle with and now this.

I am physically and mentally drained .

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Just when I thought things couldn't get worse ! After over a year of issues with the neighbour and constant trouble (not involving me in specific )but obviously it does as its been constant and trouble and police incidents, her car was blown up and set on fire other night and we had to be evacuated out the house in the middle of the night.kids are absolutely terrified as am I. Doc has prescribed me stronger tablets to help with sleeping and able to relax due to how bad I am right now.We can't live at our home anymore now due to it and the kids go back to school in 2 days.Weve been put in a b&b (which is horrendous)justnow and no where near our home, I currently have a small sofa in the room infront of the door so I can feel safe with the kids due to the type of place this is.But I am grateful to have somewhere.this is until can get a temporary accommodation.I thought my depression qnd anxiety was bad before this but this is on a whole new level,attacks,nightmares, flashbacks,constantly anxious .I feel like I'm such a failure for the fact my kids are having to go through this.i just feel absolutely numb now and don't think I can take anything else.

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