Suicidal Ideation

I’ve been really struggling lately. Just feeling like garbage physically mentally and emotionally. Everything just doesn’t feel like it gets any better. I’ve now found out my mom is going on a mini vacation to see a religious figure speak. I’m super pissed. It’s like she doesn’t give a shit that I’ve been struggling and whenever I try to talk to her about this impromptu trip she just shuts me down and tells me to let go of what happened to my soul pet. I’ve been dealing with his loss for 8 months and the hole in my chest isn’t healing. I’ve considered taking my life due to the emotional trauma I’ve suffered over and over. I do not believe in religion. It’s only negative caused issues for me. If there was this figure head that truly loved us and cared he wouldn’t have taken my baby away from me when I still needed him. This figure head wouldn’t continuously watch me struggle day in day out, month after month. I’m angry, I’m hurt and I feel betrayed. And bewildered that after everything that’s constantly happening she still believes in a fictional figure head.

Although, I’ve been dealing with this I was able to finish my liger fursuit. I’m super proud of how he turned out and cannot wait to get better pictures of him tomorrow with the sunlight :)

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There is More talk about Self-Care than the Most Critical Key to Happiness and Great Relationships of all types——-“SELF-LOVE”.

With this in-depth look at what Self-Love looks like-for your own personal growth, I would like you to take an honest look inwards and determine if you Practice Self-Love.
If you’re not, or if you’re not doing all of the bullet points given below, don’t worry— “Each morning, we are born again. What we do today is what matters most.”

As always, let’s have a great conversation about this topic below 👇 in the comments where you can use this space for your own place in your mental wellness journey. Not your mental illness journey— I am here as a friend to guide you through to the other side as much as possible—yes, that is where I stand, and the magic only happens if you let me—so how about more group members join in for your sake.

The Mighty friends that have opened themselves up to this opportunity are telling me and showing me that they are really starting to get it, and they are taking bigger, new, determined steps in their lives.

"Self-Love" refers to a deeper internal state of accepting and valuing yourself unconditionally, while "self-care" focuses on taking practical actions to maintain your physical and mental wellbeing, like getting enough sleep, eating healthy, and engaging in activities you enjoy; essentially, self-love is the mindset that drives you to practice self-care. Self-Love is the mindset too that heals the pain and keeps you in the light, Determined to keep pushing away any darkness and to stop doubting yourself.

Key points to remember:
* Self-love:
* A feeling of intrinsic worth and acceptance, regardless of circumstances
* Becoming your own best friend - treating yourself with the same respect and understanding you would give a close friend.
* Be the love you never received.
* Includes embracing your flaws
* Foundation for setting healthy boundaries and prioritizing your needs
* learn to say no when needed and clearly explain why
* Don’t seek Anyone’s validation
* Positive self-talk: Use encouraging language to speak to yourself, focusing on your strengths and accomplishments.
* Pay attention to your thoughts and feelings, recognizing negative self-talk and actively replacing it with positive affirmations/relabel upsetting thoughts
* Say something nice to yourself in the mirror — looking into your eyes & smile at yourself & say “I love you”and your name. (Yes, I actually stop myself to do this & it’s Wonderful)
* cultivate self-compassion
* Encourage Yourself
* Talk to someone you trust who *Has The Capacity To Listen*-and, Another Big Key Here is that ***Being vulnerable - completely honest and thorough- about what you’re going through with someone else is a major form of self-love because you’re taking the time to dig deep, regardless of how uncomfortable it is, And, on top of that, you’re showing yourself that you want to work out whatever’s going on with you***
* avoid comparing yourself to others
* practice gratitude
* Seek out opportunities for growth
* Creating a safe zone all your own is an act of self-love because it gives you a designated area where you can focus on your needs and emotions instead of other people’s. The key here is creating a space that feels good and peaceful when life is neither of those things.
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Patience - The attitude of understanding that things happen in their own time, including our own experiences.

The importance of patience is also a way to accept the present moment without resistance.

Patience is a form of wisdom.

I would like you to think about where in your life, and in your mental health, that you can apply Patience.

And, as always, to help You even more- Let’s have a convo about this topic by commenting below 👇

Jay Shetty sat down with Alicia Keys on one of the most critical podcasts for us, his (free) podcast called “On Purpose” which is the worlds’ #1 Mental Health podcast.

Side Note: Before he became an award-winning podcast host, Jay Shetty has been a great teacher and guide throughout my journey to mental wellness.

In this conversation/episode called “5 Ways To Overcome Self Doubt & Build Confidence Within, Nov 11, 2024;
Jay Shetty asks Alicia Keys:

“What was the work you had to do in order to go from someone who was anxious, doubtful to become someone who manifested this beautiful, incredible full life?

What was the work in the beginning stages that you had to reorient your mind?”

To this, Alicia Keys says: (who by the way Also lives a life with intention/on purpose with Mindfulness)

“I think one of the things that I had to come to terms with is that pretty much nothing is going to come in the time frame that you think is going to come.”

“And I realized, wait, you know, as hard as I try to push the thing forward, when it's time, it's time. And if it's not time, it doesn’t matter what I do. It doesn't matter how much sleep I don't get.

It's not going to be time until it's time. And so I think that that steadiness of like kind of, you just have to put one foot in front of the other is just as simple as that.”

“And so I discovered that that is how we get where we're going.

Like this increment of small, ***determined*** moments.”

And, she also advises “Have Grace with yourself. It’s alright. You are doing your best and you're going to figure out the rhythm of this thing. Have some grace.
And we can start again and try again and it’s ok.”

Let’s recap the attitudes of our healthiest mental state that I have covered so far in this group: Beginner’s Mind, Acceptance, Non-Judgment, and now too, Patience.

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I had an idea this weekend for my small business, a newish more simplistic logo. Well not 100% satisfied I do believe I’m on the right path. And honestly while a struggle to keep focused it was overall a fun process.

I’m beyond bummed that TikTok could possibly be banned, while not super active I do enjoy posting and sharing my interests with others as well as helping younger furries and even get a commission or two. It’s also been my fastest growing platform since creating it a little over a year ago.

It’s not gonna stop me from posting on blue sky and instagram however my reach is definitely stunted, it’s just disappointing to not get appreciation on my hard work, not that it honestly matters what strangers thing. What I create makes be happy and currently I have been anything but happy.

So here’s me hoping TikTok doesn’t get banned, however if it does, i guess I’ll catch you on the flip side.

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And then, we will all Keep Doing This VITAL, easy, short practice.

One of the many things I learned from the “Resilience Skills” University online course I took that I keep teaching you about here only in this group is that Resilience Needs Mindfulness.

And, 1 of the first things to learn about Mindfulness is how to practice conscious breathing and why.

Mindfulness conscious breathing exercise to practice daily 3 or 4 times—
In/Out: This is the first practice on Conscious Breathing:

breathe in (a good, deep inhale), and say or think “I know that I am breathing in”,
breathe out (a longer, full exhale), and say or think “I know that I am breathing out”

After a while of practicing this, you can shorten the cue words to saying or thinking simply “In” on the Inhale, and “Out” on the Exhale.

“When we continue to practice like this, something wonderful happens—-we stop the thinking.
This is already a miracle happening because when we think too much, we are not truly ourselves. But this way, our mind and our body becomes aligned/in the same place; instead of our body here but our mind is elsewhere— in the past or in the future.

If we practice breathing in and out with some concentration, we attain what is called the oneness of body and mind.
The body and mind are unified and you begin to be there truly yourself.

When you are not really there, you cannot see things clearly and deeply. You miss everything, everything seems to you not clear, vague.”

Running to the future or going back to the past- you miss life, that is only here in the present moment.

Breathing in and out consciously is how to get back to the present moment.

What you are looking for —joy, inner peace, freedom …is all in the present moment.

If you feel agitated and not solid, vulnerable, breakable — then you practice this in order to get solid again:

Practice sitting in a stable position and practice breathing in and out. Saying “breathing in, I see myself as a mountain, breathing out I feel solid.

From time to time, a very strong emotion overwhelms us. That emotion could be anger or despair or fear. And when we are overwhelmed by a strong emotion we feel very vulnerable, like we may die, But we are more than our emotions. We are more solid than we think. And therefore, practicing being solid like a mountain is very helpful.

Source: Thich Nhat Hahn’s The Art of Mindful Living (read by the great man himself on YouTube — I am always so calmed by his voice even.)

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I changed meds last fall and was feeling so much better. Back to working and keeping house. The holidays and a 2nd job were hard but .... then had disagreement with husband that put me back in the old pit of depression. 2 days ago. Just coming out. SO DISAPPOINTED. Facing the reality this is a lifelong disease and I have to work on it regularly. Ugh. 😪 I feel very alone and would really like some friends here.

Also I had beat a xanax addiction but I'm back on it now. Frustrating!!
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#lonely

2025 hasn’t started off the greatest. I still ferociously miss Radio who’s been gone 7 months. Still struggling to find a job and some ‘friends’ decided to show their true colors.

A few days before Christmas a former friend, asked to commission me I told them I currently wasn’t open and when I did reopen in January they would be third in line meaning their commission wouldn’t be started until the end of 2025 early 2026.

They continued to talk to me ignoring me every time i reiterated that I wasn’t open. Going as far as to make a body pattern for me asking when they could drop it off. When I once again told them that I wasn’t open they threw a tantrum, attempted to guilt trip me into not only opening early but allowing them to skip the line. Their girlfriend budded in and started misgendering me as well as using vulgarity deleting the messages before I could even finish reading them. This happened all on telegram.

They have now gone on a smear campaign in the weeks afterwards and I’m so tired of their abuse, harassment and bullying.

The red flags with these two were there, I just ignored them because I want to find the good in others. However, over the summer when I wouldn’t give in and gift them a $6000 item they harassed me for months. Telling me I was a shitty person and had led them on. This item had been listed for sale, and they were the ones who approached me for a trade. I told them no, I would only be accepting money. Only in the furry community is it okay to trade for something…

I’m afraid to go to a local convention now because I know they will be there and the likelihood of running into them is very high.

My actual friends have been great during all of this. They are a great sounding board and have had my back but I just feel like i have nothing left to give and the deep sadness I’ve been experiencing has only gotten worse.

Today, my cousin whom I haven’t heard from in weeks messaged me to invite herself over to work on her costume. She didn’t ask if I was available, didn’t ask if the day worked just asked what time she should be dropped off.

I told her that day wouldn’t work, and she got pissy.

I’m so tired, emotionally, physically and mentally…I wish I could just close my eyes and never open them again.

I’m also bummed I feel like the head I’ve been picking at for the last month isn’t turning out :/

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This is about choosing to look forward with hope and curiosity even when the path ahead feels uncertain.

To embrace the future, you must first accept that change is inevitable.

Life is a series of transitions and every ending, no matter how painful, creates space for a new beginning.

It’s easy to focus on what we have lost; to mourn the life we thought we’d have; or the plans that didn’t work out; but by fixating on what’s gone, we miss the opportunities unfolding before us. The beauty of what’s next lies in its potential; it’s the possibility of discovering something you’ve never experienced —- meeting someone who changes your perspective or stepping into a version of yourself you never imagined.

The future is not something to fear; it’s something to be curious about; what lessons are waiting for you; what dreams are yet to be realized; what joy is just around the corner?

Embracing the future requires a shift in mindset. It’s about reframing uncertainty as an adventure rather than a threat; yes, the unknown can be scary, it can make you feel unsteady and vulnerable; but it can also be exhilarating.

The greatest stories in life often come from stepping into the unknown; from daring to take a leap even when you don’t know where you will land.

Think of a time in your life when something unexpected Led to a positive change.

These moments remind us that life often works in ways we don’t understand in the moment, but they lead us to exactly where we need to be.

To embrace the beauty of what’s next, you also need to cultivate trust of yourself, and trust in the process of life.
Trust that you are resilient enough to handle whatever comes your way. Trust that even if things don’t go as planned, they can still turn out beautifully.
And trust that the challenges that you face are shaping you into someone stronger, wiser, and more capable.

It’s important to remember that moving forward doesn’t mean forgetting the past; the past is part of your story; it’s okay to carry it with you; but don’t let it hold you back; use it as a foundation to build upon, not a weight that keeps you anchored in one place.

Embracing the future also means staying open to possibilities— sometimes the beauty of what’s next doesn’t look like what you expected — it may come in the form of an opportunity you didn’t seek, a path you didn’t plan, or a version of happiness you never considered.

Being open means letting go of rigid expectations and allowing life to surprise you.

And finally, embracing the beauty of what’s next is about living fully in the present.

The future isn’t something that exists out there in the distance; it’s something you create moment by moment.
Each decision you make, each step you take, is part of shaping what’s to come.

Here’s to a Happy New Year 🎆🎊 🎉 Together, we will make it Great!

Your friend in this hard thing called life,
Dawn

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