Hey everyone. I'm having a rough day and thought I would share. I am a military spouse and we are supposed to move later this year. I am excited to leave because I don't like it here, but I am very worried. I don't want to find a new therapist and they can't practice over state lines. I feel like my support system is falling apart and I don't know what to do. #Military #supportsystems #Depression #Anxiety
The past few days have been really hard for me. I have a friend that I confide in but I don’t feel supported enough. However, she’s busy and I feel like I’m being too needy. If I don’t hear from her every couple of hours, I start thinking that she doesn’t care about me or has decided to not be my friend. Then I start thinking that she’s only talking to me because she pities me. It’s just a vicious cycle.
What I want is for her to say “Come over and hang out.” I want to be able to just cry and have her hold me and tell me everything will be alright and be attentive. Obviously that’s a lot to ask of someone, and I don’t want to tell her because I don’t want things to be awkward. It’s almost like I have separation anxiety from her. I don’t know how to stop myself from needing to hear from her or being upset when she doesn’t invite me over. #Depression #supportsystems #SeparationAnxiety #DepressiveEpisodes
Since being diagnosed my circle has changed drastically. I realized that my family were not the best individuals to vent to. Talking to certain friends allowed a lot of unsolicited opinions and bad advice. It was heartbreaking. I believe that having someone to talk to throughout the day helps you heal. It eases the loneliness. It provides some comfort. Having people you can count on gives you a different kind of peace.
Today, I talked to my friend Brittany. She woke me up this morning with a motivational text that said “Never regret a day in your life. Good days give you happiness and bad days give you experience” i needed that! #MajorDepressiveDisorder #Depression #GeneralizedAnxietyDisorder #Anxiety #supportsystems #FriendsForSurvival
Having a strong support system is important. I think I have that, but then there are bad days and Iwant to reach out only to realize I have a pretty small support system of friends who are dealing with their own things, who are stressed about their work and family. and here I am..worrying about mediocre things...i can't do a simple task. I'm there for them...but why can't I reach out when I need them...why do I feel like my own needs aren't as important, why... #Anxiety #hopelessfeelings #supportsystems #Thoughts
Up until recently I didn't understand how much I was impacted by Borderline. Every single aspect of my life has been impacted. I have been amazed and deeply sadden by this recent revelation.
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Over the last couple of months, I've had a lot of time in solitude. It's been difficult at times to find the strength and will to get "better". I've cried my fair share of tears and which each tear drop, I knew I was moving in the right direction.
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I've come to embrace BPD. I'm almost at a point where I'm proud that I've had this illness. I can see where I can use this illness to promote change, to offer hope, to be a source of inspiration, and a positive force towards the changing of the social stigma.
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I've been chosen to live with BPD. I'm ok with that. It's not easy but quitting has never been an option for me. I'm finally in a place where all the tools I need to overcome this, is in place. I just have to keep walking forward into the light.
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#BPD #Borderline #bpdawareness #borderlinepersonality #Therapy #DBT #supportgroup #supportsystems #Separation #Marriage #Family #Love #miami #MentalIllness #Awareness #Happiness #blessing #swag
I have gotten myself through a lot and try not to complain too much to my loved ones. If I do, I’ll spread out my complaints to different people, tone it down, and try not to make a big deal about it. I’ll say “I’m tired” instead of “my legs hurt”, or “can’t wait until 5:30” instead of “I just want to curl up in a ball for the rest of the day”.
On a daily basis this works fine, but sometimes I need more support. My friends have come to me plenty of times crying or angry. I listen to their problems and try to show them a fresh perspective or solution, if applicable.
Luckily, my anxiety calms down when I socialize, about anything really. So it really does help to just tackle someone else’s problems. But sometimes I wonder if me showing more raw emotion when I really need someone would be helpful.
Tonight I was in a lot of pain and had a lot of negative thoughts I could barely pull myself out of. So I texted and called two of my good friends and really needed someone to talk to. Maybe I wasn’t clear enough, or didn’t seem panicked enough, but the conversation both times quickly turned to my friends problems. And granted, they are going through some tough stuff. But I needed some time for me to talk through my shit.
Anyway, I wonder if I had been more panicked or crying or something if they would have taken me more seriously. I think I’ve learned to put on a mask of what is going on emotionally and now it’s not letting my support system know when I need support. #supportsystems #masks #Anxiety #Depression
I lost the only family I have left. I have no family support system and I have to support myself. I feel like my friends don’t want to know me and it hurts. How do you build a support system when you have no family to build a support #supportsystems #Suicide #Nosupportsystem #alone #Depression
The other day I had really strong thoughts about driving into oncoming traffic and didn’t think twice about it. I was afraid to tell anyone but once I was honest with my psychiatrist she told me that constituted a medical emergency and she would have sent me to the hospital. Hearing that made me realize that those weren’t normal thoughts and that I need help. Don’t be afraid to open up to those who are there for you, you are never alone. #Depression #PanicAttacks #supportsystems
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