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Today is the day I will get better. Today is the day when I will overcome this crippling fear that makes my body shiver and my heart race. Today is the day that I will beat these headaches that kill me every day. Today is the day I will learn to fight the horrors of being alone in the dark. Today is the day I will learn to grow, and grow on my own.
I had accepted you to be an inevitable part of me, something I cannot escape. I had learned to live with you, with the constant worry on my mind of ‘what next’. Four years later, I’m in the middle of the road and suddenly you hit me. You hit me like a hurricane on a bright sunny day that I didn’t see coming; and you hit me hard enough to break my knees so I can’t stand anymore. There you are, watching me from afar as I sit and cry with people around me and no air in my lungs.
You lurk for days around me. You’re there when I walk home alone, when I’m at work and you’re there when I’m deep in my sleep; like a lion waiting on its prey, for that perfect moment to jump down its throat, tear it apart and put rest to its hunger. You take the best of me and most of me; you tear me in pieces and break me down to someone I don’t know. I feel like a living, breathing vegetable – too afraid to feel, only existing for the heck of it. Following the same old routine every day to make ends meet which I’m not even good at.
I though today was going to be the day when I would look you in the eye, fight you and defeat you, but it’s not. Today is just like any other day, but I don’t wait for you anymore. You might be lurking around, but I don’t care anymore. Today I will prep for the day when I’ll be ready enough to fight you. I’m not anxious, patient for the day when you will stop pounding in my chest and go away. For good. #Anxiety #MentalHealth #Takecare

I feel like my mind is moving much faster than my body; I often feel fatigued and unmotivated. I'm more irritable as of late. I started intense exposure therapy for my #PTSD a while back, and while I feel it is helping tremendously, I feel exhausted much of the time and emotionally drained. The holidays make me happy, but also sad. I am often #depressed come Christmas day.
It's a little sad that a time of year that is supposed to be about spending time with family and loved ones has become so commercialized to the point where we feel this constant, nagging obligation to spend tons of money on stuff we don't need (and stuff other people don't need/end up returning) in anticipation of what other people in our lives may want or be expecting. This year, all I want is to spend time with my family, maybe make a nice dinner together or have a potluck style gathering, and play board games and watch Christmas movies. All I want is time - which we never seem to have enough of - because that's the most meaningful thing you can give someone. #time

I guess this is a reminder for everyone to #Takecare of yourselves during the #Holidayseason . Remember to be kind to yourself and kind to others this season and always. Practice #selfcare whenever you need to (au contraire to ridiculous belief, that DOES NOT make you selfish). And please, please #reachout and #CheckInWithMe and #checkin with others.

xx Elle

PS I love sending and receiving Christmas cards, so if you'd like one, I'd be happy to send one to you.

Today is 5 years since I was raped for the first time. I’m alone and feel so sad