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My thoughts on the antidepressants #Depression #ADHD
Honestly, despite taking antidepressants for about a month, I don’t think they’ll be as effective as I thought they’d be. Originally, my doctor has given me antidepressants in hopes that if the depression is treated, it might alleviate the ADHD symptoms.
However, I don’t think it will help me at all because I have not seen an improvement with my ADHD symptoms. I still struggle with what I now understand is called ADHD paralysis.
ADHD paralysis is one of the main reasons why I started getting depressed. Because I have a hard time starting tasks due to persistent feelings of ADHD paralysis, it’s always made me feel like a failure and has caused feelings of self-hatred, and hopelessness. It’s also why I feel powerless and like I’m not in control of my body.
To put it in a better analogy, if you were to ask me to do a simple task, to me it feels like if you were asking me to stop smoking in order to overcome smoking addiction. That feeling of resistance a smoke addict would have feels exactly similar to how it feels for me to start simple tasks.
That’s why I don’t think antidepressants will help me entirely because really, as long as I have these ADHD symptoms, it will not fully improve the depression. Even thinking about how powerless I feel because of ADHD brings tears to my eyes sometimes.
I’m kind of hoping I get some news about my appointment with the psychiatrist because I’ve been told it’s going to take about 2 months to even get an appointment, and they can’t really prescribe me ADHD medication without the psychiatrist. They haven’t really given me an exact date for the psychiatrist, so as of now, I have no idea when I’ll visit the psychiatrist.
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