Back Pain

I've been in bed all day. I only got out of bed to shower and go potty. I didn't make dinner tonight. My caregiver is worried about me. She's currently working on making me a frozen pizza for dinner . I'm laying here crying cuz I feel useless. I had such a good week last week and now I'm miserable. I'm not functioning. I was gonna try to take a nap today but I was in too much pain. I couldn't even meditate.

Today was the weekly pill box refill day. I have about a week of meds left. She texted our pharmacy to refill our meds but I have a second pharmacy for my psych meds to call tomorrow. I gotta call them also cuz I had an appt with my psychiatrist on Friday and he increased the dose of my olanzapine but they sent me the old dose. So until I get that fixed I'm taking 2 10mg olanzapine per night.

My back really hurts like hell. I need more Norco. But I've been taking half of a 7.5mg Norco every 4 hours and it's not doing much. I'm gonna ask my caregiver to put some CBD cream on my back and hips. It takes the edge off. I was thinking of trying medibles. I don't like being high but I hate being in pain even more. I think it would help me meditate better.

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On the left side of my back. My left side of my tummy hurts so much too. I took half of a Norco maybe 20 minutes ago. I really need to get a heating pad. It'll really help me with the pain.

I need to call my doctor office to schedule an appointment for cortisone injections in my hips. He also wants to do injection in my jaw cuz I have bad TMJ and we're gonna see if it's causing the migraine.

#TemporomandibularJointDisorders #ChronicPain

My tummy really hurts cuz I'm constipated again. It's been 6 days. I drank 2 doses of miralax and took 2 senna plus pills. I'm hoping to feel better tonight.

I spilled water on my messy kitchen counter so everything got wet. My caregiver helped me mop it up.

My back hurts. Like a lot. I took a 5mg Norco about 2 hours ago and it didn't help. I need to get a heating pad. It would help with a lot of my pain.

I was craving cheesy broccoli so I made some and a turkey sandwich. I had a chocolate hazelnut flavor cappuccino with my brunch. Now I'm sipping on some grape crystal light. I'm very thirsty.

My fasting BG was 193. My doctor says the target is 100. If it's over 180 I have to take humalog.

I'm gonna make pizza for dinner tonight. Assuming I'm functional. I've been wanting pizza all week.

#constipation #ChronicPain #BackPain #Diabetes

I woke up at about 8am without a migraine. My lumbar is really ouchy. I am constipated again. The back pain might be from the constipation. I gotta take a senna plus. It's because I ate a giant salad a few days ago. I have no self control when eating salad. Otherwise I feel pretty good. My mood is happy. I'm considering making a pumpkin pancake casserole for dinner.

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Aside from the migraine and back pain, today went well. I ate relatively healthy and my mood was up all day. I cooked a nice dinner for us. I had really yummy cappuccino. I got a new fuzzy hoodie and it's super cozy. This week has been good so far.

I'm gonna do a journal prompts worksheet with my caregiver. I asked her to join me for therapy on Monday and she said sure. My therapist hasn't met her. Which is wild cuz we've been working together for 6 years.

My caregiver and I have a very complex relationship. We love each other deeply. She takes excellent care of me and I take care of her. I really want to get back together but she is afraid she's not stable enough for a relationship. So we consider our relationship to be a queerplatonic relationship. It's going really well.

I hope the weekend goes smoothly. I'm gonna try to cuddle with her. I just might have to ask and follow through. She has been busy with work lately. She said she wants to cuddle.

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