I'm thinking of taking a trip
After living in six different countries, I have been back in my home country since December 2019. My #Anxiety and #Depression got so bad that I felt I had no choice but to come back here. I had to give up on my masters degree and my career aspirations. I lost the capacity to enjoy or be curious about new people and places because of how my #MentalHealth was deteriorating. For the past couple years, I've been trying to access mental health #treatment with really not much to show for it.
But, I am thinking of taking a trip. It is still within my country, it would be for just 5 days, and it wouldn't have to involve a lot of socializing. It's more expensive than I would normally go for, but if it helps me have a #Breakthrough then maybe it is worth it.
My trip is tentatively planned for January, but I will have to make some phone calls and do some planning about work duties. I'm feeling anxious. I'm feeling worried that my mood will crash (Nov-Jan is the worst time of year for me), and I might not even make it on the trip at all. I am also feeling a bit excited, which I haven't felt for a very long time.
#Travel #Vacation #DistractMe