You didn't know then
For the past week, I have noticed something has changed in me. There have been situations where I've reacted in a totally different way. I saw an old friend and was introduced to his wife and I was genuinely happy for them. Earlier that day, I ran into a lady I used to work for and didn't feel sick when I saw her. Today, I caught up with a friend and his sister and he introduced me to his girlfriend. Which I was excited about because he was a good guy. And with the situation with the stepfather, I no longer feel weighed down by him. I don't feel empty or guilty about it either. Normally, I would feel anxious or even abandoned, but I don't. I don't know where my path will lead me, but I know that deep inside, something is happening. #MentalHealth #Depression #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Relationships #FearOfAbandonment #journey
So ok here’s the thing now that we have been putting in the work we are starting to see the results.
Work check list: DBT CBT ACT Mindfulness EMDR MSRT Chronic Pain Therapy soon more.
Yes IT is a journey from where you are to where you can be.
Just believe just begging 🙏 start self healing ❤️🩹 start with music crying laughing writing.
Listen to meditation 🧘♀️ sleep hypnosis or anything at night. Work through the resting embrace the resting the recovery ❤️🩹 Journey.
We really know cause we have Lived Experience.
We know cause #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder cptsd
We know cause #chronicstress
We know cause
We know cause
We know cause
We know cause
#WeInWe can beat this !
#YouCan beat this !
We are all survivors we have all been through and or are going through.
Thank you God we are still here to cheer others on and to help inspire to carry them through.
We hope you knew we were close to death. We are alive and we are starting to thrive.
We would love to thank and congratulate #TheMighty Team you have blessed so many through this platform of healing support and love.
We have many reasons to be grateful and many more blessings to come.
Make the choice to choose your present 💝
We can only point to our walk our #livedexperience take the time to heal. You can heal.
We are all here you are not alone. You are worthy. You are important. You matter. You are valued.
Please be safe be well be loved 🥰 your worthy!
Don’t forget IT
Lots going on trying to keep strong and positive but would appreciate any hugs or warm positive wishes my way, thanks so much and I’ll do the same for you too! 🦋🦋🦋🌈🌈 #Overwhelm #sad #happy #confused #journey #alone #Trying #counselling #hurting #DoingMyBest #cry #Selfcompassion
I'd like to ask a question for those on the autism spectrum: What experiences did you have with loss and grief? My son's reaction to his father's death was a lack of acceptance that took us 8 months to amend. What about your own? #Grief #Autism #magical #journey
I find it deeply sad and soul destroying, that if I mention what I’m struggling with to my loved ones, the answer seems #yesweknow when wanting to share the rapid intensification of #symptoms of either #Bipolar or #BPD or #Depression etc…
Please remember friends, find your tribe. The people who #Suffer and live with what you do. This is where the #Understanding and #Kindness you’re seeking will be found.
I don’t believe anyone, no matter how much they love you, can even get a tiny glimpse of your #emotionalpain .
Don’t blame,, find others who feel and understand and have similar #mentalillnesses .
I hope this little nugget helps you in your #journey back to you.
I’ve realized that one of the major impediments in my daily life is the core belief that I am wrong, dysfunctional, defective. It seeps through every little thing I do, say or feel.
My first response to whatever I just did, thought or expressed spontaneously is to correct it into its opposite. If I become aware that my body adopted this or that position while slouching on the couch, I will automatically change it, without even questioning why the first setup was wrong in the first place. That’s a silly, mundane example just to illustrate how pervasive it is.
In more serious matters, it means I condemn every thing I want, do, say, think or feel without even taking the time of fully exploring it. Whatever happens instinctively, as soon as I get aware of it, I will immediately go the other way.
That core belief is inevitably accompanied by a permanent sense of shame. Because I am so inherently, so intrinsically wrong, because the way I’m wired is inadequate, I am ashamed of everything I am - or rather, everything I am not.
Springing from this original belief and the shame it brings, I am constantly thinking something along the lines of “I have to get better before I can do this” or “I need to fix my issues before I can attempt anything”. Meanwhile, life sort of passes me by, time flies and I wake up from time to time having gained another year and not feeling like I’ve made any real progress at all.
It makes me wonder if all the problems and issues I think I have are as real as I believe them to be - or if they are emanations of that one single twisted, crippling belief. It kept me from entering any sort of relationship for six years, believing I couldn’t impose the mess that I was on another human being. In the end, being in a relationship is probably the place where I did the most growing and gained the most self-awareness.
Anyway, I was wondering if anyone had ever come to that realization and if so, how you guys had coped with it and maybe even eventually healed from it.
Thanks for reading.
#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Shame #Selfworth #journey #Breakthrough
People always say: 'Healing is never linear.'
This means that some days you feel like you've mastered the thing that's been bothering you for years, only to break down crying about it the next day.
Don't let anyone tell you how long or how it should look or take to heal. Your #journey is your own!
Healing takes many forms for me, but the top of my list is:
1.Your #Perspective becomes your power
2.Self-care becomes essential, not seen as so selfish anymore
3.You get that #boundaries are so much more than just saying no
4.You attune to your inner child crying for attention
5.You stop ignoring your #intuition
6.Social situations becomes less stressful
7.#Depression leaves you alone for longer periods of time.
8.Creating healthier habits
9.Procrastinating less and better focus
10.Eating becomes less triggering
What else can you add to this list?
Acceptance of one’s whole self is seemingly difficult these days. The criticism and scepticism that people face from others on a daily basis is scary, unbelievable and daunting. I think what makes these feelings of judgement and worthlessness worse are the thoughts that we believe them to be true. These self-doubts can become debilitating at times. When these feelings and beliefs arise, I have a look at the passage below. It speaks of acceptance of one’s self. Self acceptance is vital in these times we live in. We rely on it to heal from our past to ensure we understand how to better our actions/ reactions in the future. Be patient in this process and know you are trying your best every day to simply be better than the day before. Accept the good and bad parts of yourself. Never condoning, nor judging, the side that requires the most growth. That’s all you can do. You are worth your own love 🌻🌻🌻
#Acceptance #Selfblame #Selfcare #Selfworth #PersonalGrowth #selfgrowth #loveyourself #patience #Takeyourtime #Positivity #Forgiveness #Healing #loveyourself #growth #freeyourself #Selflove #journey #movingforward #itstime #LetsGo #MentalHealth #Recovery
Started back to #Therapy this week. My homework was to “do something just for me, something I enjoy”.
I had to think about that, I’m still thinking about that. My career and my life revolve around caring for people. I used to say that my #Joy comes from seeing others happy but maybe that isn’t true anymore. Maybe I have cared too much and helped too much and maybe I don’t enjoy it anymore. It’s sad to say that and I still care of course but I don’t get joy from it, I do it out of duty and responsibility now.
So what do I enjoy? What will I do this week for me?