Cantgetoutofbed

I haven’t been to work in over 3 weeks. I’m going to lose my job but I was still unable to get there today. I could cause a financial burden to my husband but that thought doesn’t get me there. My doctor upped my meds about 1 week ago. I have had recurring nightmares for about 6-8 weeks. I need something to snap. #badwife #Anxiety #Nightmares #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Failingatlife

Last night was really really bad. And today I was scrolling through Pinterest and found this website, The Mighty, and it looked really interesting and relatable so I downloaded. And now here,but I’m struggling so bad. My chest hurt and I don’t want to get out of bed because everything’s painful, I just want to sleep all day. Can someone give me any advice, please? #Depression #Anxiety #struggling #ineedhelp #Advice #needadvice #GettingHelp #Cantgetoutofbed

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I have always struggled with depression, anxiety, and PTSD from my childhood. Sometimes I feel like there are people out the that glorify mental illness for other people’s sympathy, which makes me embarrassed to talk about it with people. I personally find it hard to talk about how I feel on a daily basis. I have had few people in my life that understand how the illnesses effect me. I went to a two month adventure therapy program in Costa Rica. I found out a lot about myself there. I left the healthiest physically and mentally I have ever been in my life. But then I hit the real world again. I find my self going to the bath room to cry so nobody sees my pain. I don’t want people to think I’m not as strong as I make myself. You’d never know how many times I cry in the shower or the bath room or as soon as I’m alone it all hits me. I break down. I want to talk about it but it’s always the same thing... you have everything why are you sad?... am I not good enough for you??.... you never want to do anything but lay in bed!... trust me I’ve heard it all. And it all hurts. I’ve lashed out on family to cover up how frustrated I am with myself. I throw it on the other person so they don’t notice me falling apart. And that’s horrible. It’s not good to hold everything in but if I let it it people may get the wrong impression as if they are the reason.... I don’t even know the reason. I know I’m not alone with this. It’s a day by day thing to work on and we will get there. #Depression #PTSD #Anxiety #itsokaytocry #Cantgetoutofbed #Hiding

I pushed myself too hard over my December wedding and the holidays so now my POTS is keeping me in bed. I’m working my way through my Netflix queue and reading up a storm but would like to feel a little more productive. #POTS #Potsie #Dysautonomia #Cantgetoutofbed

So I didn’t get out of bed yesterday. Made myself go to store today but now I’m back in bed. I hate this time of year. I don’t have the desire or anything to be in the spirit or happy or jolly or giving for that matter. Thinking of who I need to buy for is causing my anxiety to worsen. My family is concerned about me. I’m concerned about me. Wish I could check myself in to hospital and not participate, but that’s not happening. I feel like there are a lot of serious cries for help on here and maybe that is triggering? I’m just numb and ready for holidays to be over. Anybody listening?