Low

"Pain is inevitable". This we know.
And yet; most of us are guilty of trying to #Runaway or #hide from it. We tend to forget that it will always #catchup to us, and it will probably always #hit us twice as harsh.
The #goodnews ? Or, maybe it's #BadNews ? Either way, eventually, in our attempts to #survive we begin to realize #wealreadyhave because whether we like it or not, every day is another day of #movingforward
But what if every day feels like you're just living the same day, #overandover ? It seems time isn't passing at all until everytime you #lookback and realize how much time is really #gone
I probably wouldn't #admitit while on a #Low but #Ithink a whole lot of being human is about #Feeling
Feeling #Sadness
Feeling #anger
Feeling #Grief
Feeling #Fear
Feeling #Love
Feeling #Joy
Just... feeling. Really, actually, truly feeling our sh*t, whether it be good or bad.

#Nature 🌻🌼🌹🌱🪴🌳🌴🌿🍃🍂
#Love ❤💛💜🧡💚💙🖤🤍
#blessings 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

#Anxiety #Agoraphobia #Abuse #anaemia #CPTSD #ChronicPain #ChronicMigraines #ChronicDepression #Disability #dissociativedisorders #DomesticAbuse #Depression #Emetophobia #EmotionalAbuse #FunctionalNeurologicalDisorder #FearOfAbandonment #fearoffailure #fearofjudgement #Gaslighting #Headaches #PanicAttacks #physicalabuse #PsychologicalAbuse #PhysicalTherapy #PsychogenicNonepilepticSeizures #Seizures #SuicidalThoughts #SpeechImpediment #SexualAssault #Low vitamin d deficiency #vitamin B12 deficent

I have cheated on my husband twice.
AND HE IS STILL WITH ME!?!
BPD CAN WRECK LIVES .
I find myself often wanting validation, attention, affirmation...
I know that so many of the messages I get are FAKE ACCOUNTS...
I HATE THAT THEY MAKE ME FEEL GOOD FOR A SECOND, before I achieve them, then I'm OVERCOME BY #Guilt . and then feel so guilty for even being on the mighty... like im hiding something for my husband and then feel like im cheating.. :(
UGH!!!!! I dont know what to do. I am not on any social accounts because of my insecurities and lack of boundaries.... I dont want to go off here though.... so here I sit beating myself up #Low #BPD #Thoughts

I’m a man in my early 50’s with a world of struggles. I live in search for love, mainly because I have never been shown love, my biological family was always bickering, my mother neglected me and always had to deal with beatings or fist fights, and sexual abuse by my half brother. So I sought it in women, however I have social anxiety mostly with women and low self esteem, no money no hunny and not good enough for her to want me. Then there’s hypersexuality for both the physical and sexual abuse. How is a man, who has tried and failed so many times can truly be happy? My ex and I’s relationship of 17 years together was because she got pregnant ( we met online, I was her summer play toy and I am horny all the time) so it was a relationship that was good but was not ever true love more like friends with benefits and parenting our son too. I sometimes make mistakes when approaching women that may turn them off or not realizing the signs they are interested until it’s to late. I’m depressed, lonely, And have given up on looking for her, I am disabled and living in my car, with no income ( “oh, he is such a catch, I want to live at rock bottom with him”) that’s what I hear in my head every time I see an attractive woman I would like to meet and they ignore me like I am going to give them covid or the poverty virus. I’m sure that nobody else can understand the struggles I’m going through. Thanks for reading, hope it didn’t bore you too much. #Loveless #alone #crazyornot #Disability #CheckInWithMe #SuicidalThoughts #MentalHealth #emotional mental abuse #adolescent sexual molestation trauma