Honestly, I have no idea how I feel today. I am "emotionally blind" or something? I can't think clearly either, somehow everything is clouded and through absorbent cotton. I'm watching a series and not watching it at the same time. But food is really nice. I am high for months now, I can‘t live without it. I‘m panicking cause I realized that I have to buy it again. It‘s exhausting and relaxing at the same time. I can‘t stop it. #BPD #Borderline #Emptyness #high #Smoking #Addiction