Heartbroken Depression #CPTSD
I recently learned that my daughter has been diagnosed with both Graves Disease and Thyroid Eye Disease, just like I’ve had for 40 years. She’s had an extremely rough time managing autoimmune illness for much of her adult life, putting a great strain on our off/on relationship. I’ve always been there for her, though we live a many hours apart, and I always will be. I am blind and no longer drive. She knows how much I love her. But her father and my divorce when she was around 10 devastated her. He wouldn’t allow counseling she so desperately needed. The therapist she ultimately got as an adult got their license at Walgreens, and agrees to blaming the parents for everything. Leaving it there, full stop. My heart is just breaking for her, knowing what she’s going through… her face and eyes are becoming distorted, and it is so very painful. Your body simply shuts down, muscle weakness, utter fatigue. Graves is a horrible disease. With her they are catching it relatively early, and I know there are new drugs for treatment that weren’t previously available. I just tried to listen. Stay positive. Supportive. Comforting. She finds reasons to blame me anyway. I let her vent. I know how frightened she is. All my trust is in God. I’m just so, so sad. She hasn’t been working and can’t work now for certain. She’s in for a world of hurt when she’s unable to handle it , I can’t help her, and she’s blocked me again. Thanks for listening.