Trying really hard.
My health (both physical and mental) has been so insane these past 2-3 years. Autoimmune diseases, neurological issues, spine issues, endo, fibro, possibly lupus, spine surgery that didn't quite work not to mention panic disorder and bipolar 1. Everyday is a struggle, I'm really trying to do the best I can, one day at a time. But I feel like a failure, I'm trying to run an online business with very little help, and keep myself together. I need help for a lot of basic things like cleaning my house bc physically it's really hard. Now my mental health is acting up too and I'm coming down a manic and then mixed state. I feel like I'm deformed, like a failure, like I'm letting everyone down and I can't keep up, trapped, isolated. I'm overwhelmed and exhausted.