symptoms

Hi everybody! Hope you're doing well. I would appreciate some comments about something: when I started to experience symptoms like irritability, I used to be all the time with a bad face, and sometimes I yelled my family members for simple things. They used to feel attacked by this, and I tried to explain to them that it was because I was in a period of very bad depression, I asked them to try not to take it personally, and that because I was very irritable, I asked them to try not to talk to me while I was in that state, until I was better... I used to thought that it was a responsable way to deal with it, because those symptoms wasn't going to end anytime soon, so I tried to evoid contact. Even with the explanations, some family members said that I was being rude to them because of the grumpy face, or because they insisted in talking to me while I was like that and I yelled them. When I got better, some family members resented me, and I felt terribly and guilty because of it. When I'm not in a severe episode of depression, I don't use to yell, and can function normally. Anyone has deal with something like this? Some thoughts about this? #Family #symptoms #Guilt #communicating

Here are my symptoms at the moment:

Weight gain

- Previously I was always on the thin end of the spectrum now on the overweight boundary

- Have been passively been trying to loose weight for 18 months (usually I barely have to try to loose weight)

- Average exercise 30-60mins/ day

- I look pregnant

- None of my clothes fit anymore

Brain fog

-Can’t concentrate

- Poor memory

- Feels sludgy, no smooth thoughts

- Almost constant headache

Frequent illness/ infections

- Getting ill once a month with a cold/ flu something like that

- Have developed nasal polyps as a result

- Recovery slow avg 2-3 weeks which means I’m ill 50-70% of the time

Absolutely exhausted

- Could sleep for England Sometimes struggle to get to sleep

- Can easily sleep well over 12hrs but up to 24hrs at a time

- Difficult to get up in the morning, everything heavy

Loss of libido

- 3-4x per week down to 1x per month

Nipple discharge

- Started in January 2022

- Can be clear, milky or clear with yellow in it

- Often spontaneous after a shower

Numbness and tingling in hands and fingers

- Palm of right hand feels like ice is being rammed into it. Almost feels like the nerve is exposed and cold but it doesnt hurt and there’s not anything I can find that helps

- Left hand pinky and ring finger often go numb

- Often comes in waves where it will be almost constant for a few days or weeks then subsides for a bit

Temperature sensitivities

- Often too hot or too cold and struggle to get to the right temperature without swinging too far the other way

Loose, clicking joints

- My ankles are always giving way and often hurt for days after a particularly bad roll

- Many joints click when I move and I sound like a 1 man band, in particular my knees

- The arch of my right foot clicks but I don’t think there’s any joint or anything there to click?

Skin changes

- Lots of bruises that I don’t know where they came from

- Spots particularly on chest also more acne on my face than I had during teenage years

- Fragile skin that tears if I take a plaster off

- Purpura and pietache

- Stretch marks on my sides and thighs

Bowel changes

- Swing between constipation and almost loose/ diarrhea

Hair thinning

Slow healing of wounds

Recent additions

- Longer, heavier periods (14 days and bleeding through onto clothes started 6-9 months ago)

- Twitchy muscle thing

- Can feel blood in my legs

- Intermittently feels like I have a UTI for a few hrs then it goes away

- Bone in my lower leg hurts (both sides)

Test results

- Normal pituitary MRI

- Nasal polyps found on MRI

- Normal ovaries (NOT PCOS)

- mild anemia which worsened with heavier periods

- Normal WBC even when ill

- High IgA and IgM with normal IgG and recent EBV infection

- Negative ANA

- intermittently elevated liver enzymes, negative liver antibodies

- Negative HIV

- TSH mid of normal range, T4 on lower end but normal

- CRP normal, ESR borderline

- high Phosphate swings between high and low but usually low and rarely normal

- Intermittently but usually high estrogen, DHEAS, testosterone, cortisol, LH

- Low good cholesterol (slightly), all other cholesterols are normal

- Normal vit D, platelets, urea, electrolytes, albium, calcium, HbA1C, B12

If anyone has any suggestions of things to look into that'd be really helpful.

#Undiagnosed #chronic #ChronicIllness #chronicallyill #searchingforanswers #Gaslighting #Answers #Diagnosis #Testresults #symptoms

A miracle has been done in me and I want to share incase it helps any of you to better manage your symptoms.

My ability to better manage my BPD has taken place in three phases so far. If you are not a person of faith, PLEASE READ PAST IT TO THE NEXT TWO PHASES.

First, I have harnessed my faith by trusting in God's will for my life, not mine, and have prayed for it consistently (well as consistently as this inconsistent person can). The fact that I have gotten better at trusting Him is a miracle within itself.

Second, I have, with the help of someone calling me on my crap, realized the impact of my BPD on others and took responsibility for that impact, despite it being symptoms of my BPD. At the end of the day, it's still my own behavior.

Third, I am working on working through my episodes without bringing others into it. This goes back to my reliance on my faith. There's no way I could do this without God. No way. The realization I had is that if I am able to manage my episodes successfully on my own, once it's over, no harm no fowl. What I mean by that is that doing so decreases or limits the chance of my episode causing relational fallout. So far it has worked though it takes me learning to sit in my discomfort and again, trusting God's will in whatever has triggered my episode.

THE ABOVE DOES NOT APPY TO YOU IF YOU ARE SUICIDAL OR SELF DESTRUCTIVE. In that case, reach out to someone who understands, if you don't have anyone, reach out to me.
#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #episodes #symptoms #MightyTogether #TheMighty

Lately I’ve been put under so much stress and anxiety. My body has been reacting to it.
I feel extremely tired to the way that I don’t wanna leave my bed, I get nauseous feeling like I need to throw up. I also feel chills, that I’m cold even though I don’t have a fever. Sweaty palm happen sometimes too. On top of what I said before, I haven’t been eating well and I’ve been drinking a lot of alcohol so my body is weak and I feel sick.
I just want you to know, you reading this, that thing’s gonna get better. The mind is extremely powerful and if the mind is not ok the body is not okay aswell. Don’t overthink and most important, do NOT SEARCH SYMPTOMS ONLINE. I’ve done it so many times and it ruined me during a long time. There are so many outcomes from literally so many situations and anxiety only makes us see the worst case scenarios that aren’t even gonna happen.
The body is a reflex of the mind and if we’re not stable mentally, our body is gonna reflect the consequences. We need to give it time.
I know it’s hard because i suffer with severe anxiety but don’t forget that anxiety is like living in a fantasy world. We mostly stress out about things that never occurred yet and probably never will.
Hope this helped someone.

#Anxiety #symptoms

My MRI results came back as normal & ENT have discharged me.

I’m not quite sure what to do. Does this mean I have to deal with migraines for the rest of my life now? My hearing randomly going? The pain and mental attacks from the increases during colds etc?

I know, I should be grateful that it’s normal. But I’m just feeling lost and frustrated. There’s no plan now other than just having to deal with it.

#Sinus #ent #MRI #symptoms #ChronicPain #ChronicMigraines #Hearing #MentalHealth #Feelinglost #normal #WhatNow

I find it deeply sad and soul destroying, that if I mention what I’m struggling with to my loved ones, the answer seems #yesweknow when wanting to share the rapid intensification of #symptoms of either #Bipolar or #BPD or #Depression etc…

Please remember friends, find your tribe. The people who #Suffer and live with what you do. This is where the #Understanding and #Kindness you’re seeking will be found.
I don’t believe anyone, no matter how much they love you, can even get a tiny glimpse of your #emotionalpain .
Don’t blame,, find others who feel and understand and have similar #mentalillnesses .
I hope this little nugget helps you in your #journey back to you.
Bipolarlinedeb ♥️🌹🌹