Today I am in pain. Today I can feel every bone in my body and the deep ache that is unwavering. Today I wish I was normal. I wish that the seasons changing didn't mean I would be in agony for weeks on end, that it felt like my spine was going to tumble down or that my femurs were going to fall out of my knees. Today it's hard to catch my breath because with every inhale I am holding back a scream from deep within that would be able to wake the monster inside us. Today it feels like my muscles have given up, that my skin is made of paper and the ground is scissors, slashing into my core. Today I wish I could just scream, scream for the pain I feel, the desperate wish that this didn't happen. I wish I could transfer this feeling to the bad people, let them feel this kind of agony. because today I am in pain and for a moment I forget that it will pass. I will get relief, but today it feels like it's forever away. Today I am in pain.