Gratitude is helping me heal I’m grateful for the small stuff. I’m grateful for the people in my life and those who reached out to me. Showing myself compassion every day helps me feel confident. Self care is so important. I’m thankful for my son who cosign for my apartment
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It’s my birthday today so I got my free sugar cookie latte at Starbucks. I get 5.00 off coming from Barnes and Noble so I’m heading over there soon and I have to exchange 2 pairs of jeans. I celebrate my birthday with my son and his girlfriend on Sunday . We are going to a pizza place for dinner. I only got 3 hours and 20 minutes of sleep last night because of anxiety and depression
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I had depression for 4 days. It started in therapy because we were talking about trauma. I still feel shame about it. I still remember the threat he said to me if I told. I cried myself to sleep that night. I got 3 hours of sleep that night. My depression continued but I still went to the museum with my mom but I was on the verge of tears because my mom is older and I am afraid of losing her. I decided to enjoy the glimmers in my apartment. The beautiful candles I put on, a hot shower and my hot chocolate. I just cozy up with my blanket. I even reached out I’m shocked I did that. Friday same depression but glimmers and self care helped me get through. Saturday was bad I had paranoid and delusional thoughts about someone in my group was trying to have me replaced as an admin and it wasn’t true. Sunday was less of depression but I didn’t sleep at all so my mood is elevated. I just focus on self care, gratitude and self compassion to help me through
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I’m still having #Anxiety and PTSD from the bedroom door. I let my therapist know about it and we are having a virtual session tomorrow. I went walking and got my Starbucks. On my way home my son and I were texting so that was a good distraction.
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We have a ranch house with 2 bedrooms on the main floor. Whenever I have virtual therapy I tend to look at one of the bedrooms and I see a flashback of my abuser in the bedroom. It’s part of my psychotic features. I was crying in therapy cause he saw me #Hallucinations . I decided to close the bedroom door now I’m having #Flashbacks of him behind the door where I can see his shoes. This happened when my mom took me in her bedroom and asked if he was doing anything to me. I know he isn’t there but 8 yr old me says he is. The abuse never took place in this house. Welcome to #PTSD
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On Tuesday it dawned on me that I didn’t remember the ages 9-11 years old. I know I was abused by my brother at 8. A huge gap is blocked. My therapist said I dissociated during that time. I don’t even remember fall or winter. I know the abuse started at 8 and it was in spring and summer. The rest I can’t remember. Trauma therapy and exposure therapy can open your eyes to make you think. I started to cry a little bit then stop. My therapist said its ok to cry. I said crying isn’t safe (trauma response). I know it needs to come out but its gonna take time. He wants our therapy to be in person which is fine with me there is a Starbucks across the street. He said we do it either way
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I am at my heaviest weight I have ever been. I suffered through anorexia in my teens and early 20’s and had to have two blood transfusions at 21. During my during my healing, I was diagnosed with bipolar 1 disorder. I am a survivor of incest, rape, physical and sexual violence, and extreme bullying. I relied on drugs and alcohol in my younger years due to this, which, in turn attributed to my illness. My medication caused extreme weight gain. I went from the skinniest I had ever been to the heaviest I have ever been in the matter of less than two years. Going from one extreme to the next was extremely depressing. My boyfriend says he loves me just the way I am. I’m learning to believe him. #Bipolar1 #BipolarDepression #Incest #Rape #SexualViolence #SexualAssault #Anorexia #EatingDisorder #EatingDisorderRecovery
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If I stopped to think about all the men that have taken advantage and abused me sexually, physically, mentally, and emotionally…I would cry forever. #Abuse #SexualAssault #Incest #RapeSurvivors #Survivor of rape and or molestation #DomesticViolence #PTSD #SexualViolence #Shame
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I turn 29 in about a month and I’ve never felt younger. I guess all my time in my twenties spent inside and going to bed early really paid off well. Learning to accept myself as I am, mental illness and all. My chemical imbalance stems from extreme childhood and adult sexual abuse and drug use (that developed after said abuse) I am not weak because I take medication, I take medication because I am too strong for this world to handle. I do not have social media to drag me down. I attribute my young looks to the fact that I don’t partake in trashing others. Kindness is karma. If you live your life free of hate you will be forever young. #SexualAssault #PsychiatricSurvivor #childlike #SexualAbuse #Incest #Bipolar1Disorder #ddlg
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Is incest considered sexual abuse? At 4/5 my slightly older sister started an incestual relationship with me (male). She was being molested by a baby sitter.in that time i was both a victim and then an initiator. It didnt happen after that time frame. But it opened doors too early and a sick sexual existance proceeded out of that and the sexually perverse house i grew uo in there.
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