lookingforhelp

I just turned 22 last week, I feel like I’m doing absolutely nothing in my life. I started going to college after high school, and completed my first year. I took a year off, and then started to go back again, and got so anxious and depressed I dropped all my classes before I failed. I work a prn job with inconsistent hours, and I don’t make that much money. I feel like a loser, I don’t have friends, no partner to rely on, and mother is at work a lot. My brother isn’t really nice to me and has a bunch of problems on his own. I wish I had money to move out on my own and mature. #Depression #anxeity #PanicAttack #IfYouFeelHopeless #helpme #lost #lookingforhelp #tiredoffighting #Cantkeepgoing #empty

I’m not sure how this works. February and March are the two hardest months for me. Specifically Valentine’s Day and March 8th. I’ve been staying with a friend to help her with her baby that she can’t currently take care of on her own. If I wasn’t here I’d be hospitalized or dead. Until today I’ve been more or less okay, but today I had a major break down. Feeling unloved, unwanted, unneeded, waste of space, useless....... the list goes on but those are the main ones. I don’t want to carry on. I don’t know what to do. And I don’t know how long to let this feeling exist before seeking help.

I get sick all the time in winter if I have to spend time around public transport and the likes. No one knows where to get them and I couldn’t find any that look kinda nice. #ImmuneDeficiency #gettingsick #germs #lookingforhelp