Dissociated and Lost
I've started a PHP program recently, which has made me aware of how severe all of my mental/physical illnesses are. I thought I was in control, but I've been burying and slowly dissociating from myself and reality. It just hurts right now. I know it'll get easier logically, but I just hurt so bad. I wish life could freeze or I could skip to where its more manageable. It doesn't help that my close family keeps leaving me alone and my friends all are going through similar situations (so they trauma dump on me, and I feel too guilty to put myself first). I just feel very alone and scared tonight, I wish I had someone to talk to. #Depression #SuicideIdeation #ChronicPain