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This homestead was amazing. It still had all of the out buildings and most of them were still upright. When I was pulling in the driveway, this capture caught my attention. It turned out to be one of my best beginner pics ever.

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My hobby is photography, specifically old farms and homesteads. It's my passion. I get to drive with soft music playing, cruising the back roads to see what I can find. Coming upon a new place and getting butterflies in my stomach; what will I find?

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This farm had so many buildings to capture, with a stunning sky for a background. Although this building looks like it's going to topple over right away, it typically takes more than a few years for the ground to gobble up buildings.

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I have taken up painting as a hobby and, although I have zero knowledge or talent, I find it calming. I either gift my pictures or turf them out. There are just too many to keep. This picture is my self portrait. The black represents trauma that slowly leads into the grey, that is healing. White represents fresh and new and innocent. The red is my face; I'm so broken it is unrecognizable.

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When I'm driving the backroads and I come upon an old homestead, I get shivers. What am I going to find? Sometimes, like this picture, you turn around to see if there are any shots you're missing and the frame jumps out at you. That's what happened with this shot. Everything lined up perfectly.

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This is a shot just outside of Chester cathedral where I went with my partner in July. Things have been difficult especially last few weeks and more recently turned to faith or coming closer back to it as a means of hope. However I am still struggling and wonder if I am not alongle in this. Not much is said about suicidal feelings or ideation as a means of comfort. I dont mean dangerous active thoughts but the idea that life can be in control physically. I dont mean this as a trigger but I sometimes find that imagining my end or purposeful demise has brought me a safe feeling inside. ..I hope this is okay to say. #SuicideIdeation #Depression #SocialAnxiety #Selfharm

My psychiatrist suggested I try Acceptance and Commitment Therapy for my mental health conditions. I am wondering if anyone has tried ACT, and what results they've had, good and bad.

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We have two cats and two dogs. Ellie is our 14-year-old Chorkie (chihuahua x yorkie). She is my little girl and gets very stressed when she's away from me. Next is our 3-year-old seal point siamese named Zinger. Then comes our 2-year-old ocicat named Magnus. Finally, we just got a new baby chihuahua named Rika; she's 10 weeks old and weighs 2 lbs.

These critters keep me here when I'm facing my darkest days and worst demons. They need me. If I wasn't here, they would have to find new homes and that would be difficult, especially for little Ellie as she's old and has severe separation anxiety. I'm so thankful to all of them for keeping me here. I love them more than all the love in the world.

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