Needabreak

Lately it's been too much, trying to deal with my voted, school, being in lockdown, I feel like I'm going crazy. I thought dealing with my cptsd and trying to heal would be easier, I never thought I'd open Pandora's box.
I know I should keep fighting to get better, but right now I'm not in a good place, I'm scared of people touching me, my bf has to warm me before kissing or hugging and I don't want him to feel bad, but he is very supportive towards that. I feel like my head is going a thousand miles per hour and I can't stop, it's just weird. I haven't slept in days and all my school work is piling up, don't know what to do, I'm going crazy...
any advice?

Getting annoyed with my living arrangements. Unfortunately there is nothing I can do about it. This is why I am now just sitting in my car typing this...ugh! 🤦‍♀️ #Needabreak #Depression #antisocialbehaviors

I’m getting very close to reaching the limits of what I can bear. Home is unbearable, work is unbearable, finances are at a breaking point, and I have no outlet other than alcohol and food binging. I am about to break. #Needabreak

I have bpd and anxiety. I also am bi polar. I feel the need to escape situations that are not always toxic but are toxic to me. I mean, I make more out of a situation than what’s really there. It’s part of my condition I know but, it’s just not getting better.
I need to constantly feel valued and appreciated. It’s exhausting to people who know me best. I am drowning daily. I need to take mental health days but, I am too short staffed to do it.
I need to get away for awhile and I have no money to do that. My sanity is wearing thin. I follow positive threads and blogs. I try to think positively on all accounts. But, I just need a break. #Needabreak #imdrowning

Sorry I haven't posted in a while. I'm not doing okay right now. And I just couldn't compose my thoughts. All I want to say is. I couldn't write any encouragement cause I felt like it would make me a hypocrite. Because all the encouragement, I won't believe myself. I know that others can make it through this. Like I believe in you all so much. But when it comes to me , I feel like I'm just too weak.

Stay strong. Stay safe. You'll be okay.

I promise.

#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Depression #lonely #okay #staysafe #Needabreak

I’m dealing with invisible illnesses: chronic pain, migraines, anxiety, undiagnosed illnesses including most recently fatigue. I’m constantly being judged by friends and family and by my work. I’m berated daily because my illnesses are not visible. I don’t want to feel this way. I don’t want to be stuck in bed. I don’t want to miss out on life. I don’t want to break commitments. I’m hard enough on myself and when the rest of the world piles on, it feels like too much. I don’t feel like I have a safe space to talk about these things and there are only a couple of people who understand me. I’m trying to stay positive, but things have been really tough lately.