molestation

Hi, my name is Mel. I'm here because I want to help Christian women break free from anxiety, panic, and fear that came from childhood trauma. As a child, and even into adulthood, I suffered from all of those things and persisted to get worse when I became an adult. When I was a child I was neglected by my parents, there was child abuse, and my parent's best friend molested me when I was 11... I had many traumas that brought on anxiety, fear, and panic. I started to live through the lens of trauma which many of us do because of what happened to us. I help you understand that this is more spiritual than anything else.

If you want to read my whole story of deliverance and healing with the link below.

fosteringtheinnerchild.com/post/my-story

#MightyTogether #Anxiety #Depression #SexualAbuse #neglect #molestation

Hi, I guess a quick update. I'm still doing better, I've getting back on task with my school work and I've been able to reconnect with old friends. I'm here again because my heart hurts, I want to talk about "him." The man that molested me name is Frank. He was like my dad, I put all of my trust and love into him and now there's a restraining order between us. Usually I'd talk to my therapist about this stuff but I feel like she getting tired of hearing the same stuff from me, and with other people they either get too involved or don't really care. Sometimes I'm terrified of the thought of him, sometimes I wish he'd just die, but someone times I miss him. I hate that I feel that way, I don't think I should. I know what happened is his fault, I was only 13 but why do I still feel like I can't hate him? I know the attachment since he was close to me but that was 4 years ago. I could cry right now because I miss those times so much. As a kid I always felt that my family wasn't perfect. My family has gone into fights using knives, talk about abusing drugs and disowning members were there. I grew up with my brother's mental abuse from my uncle. It's screwed up, but when I met Frank he took me away from it all. There was no stress, care or anything like that when we'd hang out. I could get as many hugs as I wanted whenever I wanted but what made them different from the others was that I knew completely then that he loved me. I really miss him, I want to say it without thinking so hard. But I just don't know how I should feel, I'm a bit afraid to ask my therapist and tell her all of this because they're really focused on getting me back on track in school. I don't know if I'll even trust someone enough to love again, although my relationship with Frank was a father daughter type it's affected my view of romantic relationships. I can't get my thoughts straight. Does the way I feel normal?

So. Went to the ADA today to see if my uncle was going to get charged with sexual assault. He’s not getting charged because there wasn’t enough evidence and there wasn’t an adult witness. #savethekids #molestation #worldsucks

#SexualAbuseSurvivors

I was sexually abused by my father as a little girl, and I didn’t accept it until recently (at age 24) Plus I’ve finally told my mother. (My parents were separated long before) And she is helping me heal. I no longer speak to him, and now he is disowned by the rest of my family. I am ashamed that some of my family knows, and I know that I shouldn’t be. Every day is a struggle. How do you move on from this? I’ve grown up denying that something so horrible could ever happen to me. I’m also afraid I’ll never be able to trust a man enough to be in a relationship. I want to love my body again, and allow myself to be loved. #incestsurvivor #molestation #PTSD

#PTSDfromAbuse

Some nights I feel so much guilt and blame. Then I get intrusive thoughts and it hurts me all over again. It's been 3 years and I'm still broken. #SexualAbuse #molestation