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    Of Incest And The Like

    It is the not speaking
    that keeps the status quo.

    Silence, the harbinger,
    allowing for chaos,

    granting the deviant
    the freedom to destroy.

    Talk of your broken souls,
    talk of your night terrors,

    tell all of your tremors,
    of the intrusive thoughts

    and of the flashbacks that
    steal all of your todays.

    Expose every misdeed,
    bring the perpetrators

    into the light of day,
    saying even their names.

    Only in this way
    will the chain be broken.

    #incestsurvivor #CPTSD

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    Does it ever go away? The pain, the shame, could I have turned out different, the decisions I made, regrets, illness, never trusting again

    #incestsurvivor

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    The Cliff #EatingDisorders #Anxiety #BingeEatingDisorder

    I'm standing on a cliff. I can either take a leap of faith that God will give me the help and strength and the unknown Something to make my clean, complete, and absolute break from the Processed and Allergy-Inducing into my Body's begging, insistent, restrictive but Needed Nourishing and Healing required Eating Pattern/Lifestyle/fill-in-the-word-please------------
    OR
    I can, mouthful by mouthful, day by day, weekend by weekend, continue to sit with my knees drawn up in this dusty, grainy, dry grass on top of this Cliff and kill myself with Inflammation.
    Abdominal pain, sharp and burning, when I eat too much saturated fat.
    Twisting, jarring spasms of muscles, tendons, soft tissues.
    Swollen, stiff, aching claws of hands from arthritis.
    Mucus clogging, choking, draining in my nasal passages, throat, and chest from milk solids and milk products.
    Violent nausea, vomiting, diarrhea due to allergies to Nightshades, chemicals, and preservatives.

    I tried to express this driving MUST feeling, of me standing on this Cliff, of my feeling trapped, MUST MUST MUST, to my husband.

    I was unsuccessful.
    He started telling me about his lunch menu today. I leaned my forehead against the glass of my bedroom window, feeling its smooth coolness, trying to soothe myself, while at the same time wishing it was one of the concrete walls in my apartment so I could beat my head against it in frustration.

    I wanted to scream at him:"I don't want to talk about food! I don't want to cook! This isn't about FOOD!"

    This is about the Cliff and the Abyss and the Sky and the Earth and the River. And the MUST.
    The terror of both action and inaction.

    I either jump into a new world of Health, or I will die.

    #SexualTrauma
    #incestsurvivor
    #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder

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    SELF HARM IS NEVER OK

    Self harm is never okay. It’s a dangerous way to ‘cope’. And it becomes an addiction. Most people who self harm don’t want to kill themselves. But, many times, that’s EXACTLY what happens. They go further than they actually mean to. Like the drug addict who says they know how much they can handle. It’s damaging and dangerous.
    Finding the right therapist for you to help you work through the issues that lead to those feelings of low self-worth, shame, frustration, etc., is a healthy way to find healing. Self harm never is.
    I’m thankful I’m getting the real help I need. Today, I’m 645 days self harm free. And if I can do it, you can too.
    You have infinite value. Please reach out for support. You are Mighty. Safe hugs to you.
    #Anxiety
    #childhoodabusesurvivor
    #Christian
    #CPTSD
    #Depression
    #GAD
    #I ’mhealing
    #I ’mhuman
    #incestsurvivor
    #mentalabuse
    #MentalHealth
    #OCD
    #RLS
    #RapeSurvivors
    #SelfharmRecovery
    #SuicideSurvivor

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    CPTSD and the difference between PTSD

    I found this diagram to be helpful for pointing out the different symptoms of each disorder.

    So much of the time, those of us who are wondering if we have Trauma disorders don't get an accurate diagnosis because we or our providers don't ask the right questions.

    Being your own Advocate often means having to do a lot of research and finding out what is true for you.

    In my journey, searching the Internet, particularly reputable sources like the American Psychological Association; reading books by well-known author's in the Trauma field; attending support groups such as NAMI (National Association for the Mentally ill) and interviewing my potential providers as to their experience with Trauma work have all been excellent strategies for getting the best care possible.

    Remember that you are the best person to describe what is happening with yourself. Trust your ability to co-create the right healing relationship.

    #CPTSD #Trauma #incestsurvivor #Depression #Anxiety

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    SPRING HAS SPRUNG! 💚🤍💚🤍💚🤍💚🤍💚🤍💚

    #Anxiety
    #childhoodabusesurvivor
    #Christian
    #CPTSD
    #Depression
    #GAD
    #I ’mhealing
    #I ’mhuman
    #incestsurvivor
    #mentalabuse
    #mentalhealth
    #ocd
    #rls
    #rapesurvivors
    #selfharmrecovery
    #suicidesurvivor

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    Choice??? Did any one of us have choices??? Yet we live with these involuntary, traumatic consequences that we carry heavily our whole lives.

    #Nightmares
    #Flashbacks
    #warriorsurvivor
    #CPTSD #Bipolar2Disorder #IrritableBowelSyndromeIBS #ADHD #ObessiveCompulsiveDisorder #incestsurvivor #Trichotillomania #DependentPersonalityDisorder

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    Why is it that we don't talk about incest? #incestsurvivor #speakout #Incest

    Why are we allowed to talk about the babysitter but not our own mother? Why are we allowed to talk about men's abuse but not abuse by women?
    Why do we try and avoid the unavoidable?

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    It's not your fault

    Repeat after me. It's not my fault! It's not my fault it's not my fault. It's not my fault.
    Say it as many times as you need to. Say it every day. Say it in the shower. Say it while your 🚙. Just please keep saying it. Tap that in. #Abuse #DomesticAbuse #ChildhoodAbuse #incestsurvivor #Trauma #Depression #Anxiety #BipolarDepression

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