I‘m not talking to my mother anymore
(Recently I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, and it was caused by my parents' trauma)
We have always had our difficulties. I grew up with my father and I only saw my mother every two weeks. (That wasn't a good time for me either) Then I moved in with my mom - it was like hell. She was clingy, always criticizing me, invalidating me and in the end emotionally abusive. Her husband was no different. He is choleric and I was traumatized. I was only useful when I helped around the house, and even then there was always something wrong. My brother was the sunshine. Although he is simply a sociopath, he was allowed much more than I was. I tried to explain to her many times what was bothering me about our relationship, but she always didn't care. That's why I eventually gave up on it.
Now I live in my own apartment (800 meters away from my girlfriend) and have broken off contact. With my mother, her husband and my brother. And I am doing better. Much better. However, she has also been pressuring me, ringing up a storm, and I knew it was her. They didn't stop until I sent them a letter saying I needed time and to stop doing that. Since then, there has been nothing. I have been doing better since then. Lately, I've been thinking about writing to her more often. But honestly, I don't want to. I don't want contact because I'm afraid of criticism, anger, disappointment and pain. I can't. So, am I the asshole for not talking to her? #EmotionalAbuse #BPD #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Mothers