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It starts way back when I was 5. Born into a Catholic family and going to Catholic schooling and church I just went along because it's all I knew to do. I was molested by a priest at 5 but stayed silent because it wasn't the first time something like that had happened. I just figured it was my lot in life. Then I joined a youth choir and was groomed by a guitarist who had me sit on his lap before I stopped him from coming over, which made him leave altogether. This was followed by religious and emotional trauma imposes on me by the priest. I was molested by a brother at a youth camp and though I told a friend, they didn't know what to do. So I left it. I lost a child at birth and was told it was due to sin and unforgiveness. This got too much so I left the church and got pushed in the back by the priest on the way out.
I then joined a pentecostal church. That wasn't much better. Very controlling. More religious abuse. I had a breakdown and was told I was in sin and that self harm was sinful. I was taken to a Christian counsellor who told me I had multiple personalities living inside me. I didn't know how to defend myself. I was suicidal when I left there. I joined another church but they offered me no support when my mother died. I left and joined another church. More controlling behaviour and I just couldn't take it anymore so I left and have been battling in and out of hospital ever since but am afraid to trust anyone in a church setting again. Religion has left a sour taste in my mouth and there's been too much trauma. I'd rather just go it alone with my faith.
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Anybody else struggle with guilt and shame around intimacy because of religious teachings you no longer believe in? I mean, it's suffocating..
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I’m new here. My pastor friend said that I have PTSD and I’m trying to understand. I’m 55, My husband of 30 years just died of vascular dementia brought on by kidney disease. For 6 years I’ve been mourning mental losses in my best friend. I had an absent father, was raped as a teen multiple times, and had a bad coping mechanism…so I turned to another man for companionship and love this year. I worked at a church, confessed and repented, but they made it public to the members, despite counselors saying that my husband couldn’t process it and it put me in potential danger. I was suicidal. I lost my job and friends, my step kids were not helpful. I took care of him and my mom who is blind and can’t walk. I have no income now. I’m a mess. #Dementia #Grief #PTSD #religious Trauma

Religious Trauma is a thing and has shaped and affected my mental health journey in many different ways mainly the idea that I can just pray and all of my issues my imbalances will disappear but I no longer need to rely on the medication that allows my brain to process and calm my emotions in a logical manner instead there's this mentality that the reason that I am ill is because I don't attend church where my mental health is considered to be my fault because I gave into a sinful behavior I understand that religion plays its own role in our everyday lives and how we process things and it might benefit people to look to a higher power overall and there's nothing wrong with that but when you begin to judge people for their mental illnesses by blaming it on their lack of a religion that's when it becomes a problem and I just want to know why do people who our religious believe that this mentality is okay?
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