I’m new here. My pastor friend said that I have PTSD and I’m trying to understand. I’m 55, My husband of 30 years just died of vascular dementia brought on by kidney disease. For 6 years I’ve been mourning mental losses in my best friend. I had an absent father, was raped as a teen multiple times, and had a bad coping mechanism…so I turned to another man for companionship and love this year. I worked at a church, confessed and repented, but they made it public to the members, despite counselors saying that my husband couldn’t process it and it put me in potential danger. I was suicidal. I lost my job and friends, my step kids were not helpful. I took care of him and my mom who is blind and can’t walk. I have no income now. I’m a mess. #Dementia #Grief #PTSD #religious Trauma