Silverlining

First- my story is posted to the mighty! If you or anyone you know has had struggles with chronic illness, I think it would make a good read.
Second- I’m getting my hair dyed today! You’ll never guess what color it is! (Spoiler alert: I’m going back to pink!) I’m currently sitting with a bunch of tinfoils on my head waiting for the bleach to process.

I share this because it’s a good reminder, even to myself, that there can be silver linings to bad situations, even if it can be hard to find. My eye surgery isn’t happening tomorrow, and that now has graduation and prom plans dangling in the air. I’m choosing not to dwell on it, because I have no control over the situation. All I can do is focus on those silver linings, and get through as best I can.

#RareDisease #IIH #IdiopathicIntracranialHypertension #ChronicIllness #Silverlining #silverliningspoonie #pinkhairdontcare #mightystory #CheckInWithMe

I was lucky enough to be handed this by my Mother. A transcript of my Nanas life story. It really made for some interesting reading. Now she had a lot of battles in her life and it made me reflect on mine. It is easy to be melancholy and feel sorry for yourself some days. The real challenge is to overcome these emotions and only focus on the positives. Today I’ve decided to not sweat the small stuff, in fact not even the big stuff. Today is a day I feel strong and can be mind over matter! Not every day is like this, in fact I may be feeling a bit low later but I am choosing to love my life no matter how challenging this may be #Positivitymakesadifference #mindovermatter #Silverlining #MightyTogether

This rang true for me during this time which has been hard but also positive in some ways. #Depression #DBT #shitshow #Silverlining

So, I woke up this morning with immense pain in my right thumb and wrist, where I have tendonitis. The rain the last few days, as well as the crocheting a blanket has severely aggravated it to the point where I have to take a day off from blanket making and baby my wrist. So, in leiu of being artistically creative, I thought it would be a perfect day to dye my hair. Hence, the pic lol. I'm going lightish brown, and I'm natural a dirty to light blond. I'm super excited to see how it turns out. I'm not sure what is on the docket for the rest of the day, but I'll face whatever comes with a smile and newly dyed hair! #quarantinesurvival #wegotthis #Silverlining #Hufflepuff #optomisticrealist

Not sure if everyone else agrees with it, but it gave me a good laugh because that's just how I am feeling about this whole thing, haha. #Anxiety #GeneralizedAnxietyDisorder #guesswhatimokay #Silverlining

I’m learning to be brave enough to allow that “hot loneliness” in of my thoughts and feelings no matter how unpretty. I’m learning to let them come and try my best to identify the root of my negative thought..I’m trying my best everyday to address what no longer serves me and let go of any false delusions I may have of what “my life should look like” or what society tells me “ I should be” but just because I understand doesn’t mean it’s easily done and doesn’t mean it’s easily applied to my life . Reading this reminds me of my individuality, my authenticity,reminds me of my spark ⚡️! I’ve always believed my diagnosis was much more than the stigma this world places on it. I’ve always felt being bipolar allowed me to experience and see the world differently and definitely sent my creativity into over drive! But that doesn’t mean this collateral beauty didn’t come with a price ! And although I may feel I’ve paid that debt and moved past some of my darkest moments . There days I still feel the sting ...

For a very long time I thought I did something wrong. I thought I wasn’t good enough and I kept trying to be better. I have realized it was never me that wasn’t good enough...I realized I was actually TOO GOOD for him. 14 years of his abuse has actually given me life. Today I stand up for the things I believe in. When things seem impossible I find the possible. I don’t let him (or anyone else) stand in my way. God answers my prayers in ways I least expected. God has brought me happiness!!! God’s unspoken words to me were”have patience my child”. #strengthwithin #Happiness #Silverlining