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I seem to have a much better grasp on my bpd. I dont have any outbursts anymore, my fiance and i rarely ever argue and when we do it isnt even close to being as bad as our arguments used to be and they are short lived.
I have found great coping mechanisms such as; leaving the situation as soon as i feel upset/angry, listening to music, taking some much needed "me time", playing with my kiddos or journaling.
You may wonder how i got to this point but eventually you just get sick of your own shit. You get tired of pushing away the ones who matter most. You get tired of over analyzing every little thing. You get tired of the guilt you feel after an out burst. I still struggle daily but I feel like I have way more control over my emotions than ever before .
I wanted peace of mind most of all.
There is hope. 💜
#CPTSD #AdjustmentDisorder #Depression #Anxiety #thereishope #Recovery #Lettinggo
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Lost Awakening
here are days where I can feel me,
I can sense me, taste me.
The me I've been without...
The me I've been covering for...
The me lost within innocence,
The me controlled in confinement.
The me trembling in memories.
The me confused in unrememberance
I can feel me...
Stirring deep within.
Intolerably restless inside,
Rattling the walls of my body.
An itch in my throat...
My voice clawing it's way to auditory heights.
The empty pit In my belly...
Lies I've been fed.
The tickle upon my tongue...
Truth tied to uncertainty.
The ringing in my ears...
Thoughts too loud to hear
The fog in my head...
Choices masked in indecision and fear
I can feel me,
I can feel,
Embers fiercely burning fire back into my soul...
Melodies rhythmically beating song back into my heart.
I can feel me Awakening.
#CPTSD #PTSD #SexualAssault #RapeSurvivors #DomesticViolence #physicalabuse #EmotionalAbuse #Survivor #findingme #Selfdiscovery #Poetry #MentalHealth #TheMighty #Community #thereishope #MightyPoets #strength #mystory #myvoice #lost #Depression #Love #hate #justiceforsurvivors #monstersamongus #Abuse #justice #Karma #haveyourdayincourt
THERE IS HOPE #Depression
These two book changed a lot of people who didn’t believe depression was real. I was brave enough to share my story with the world. #Depression #Selfharm #thereishope
Yet more positives to close out 2018
In the last month I’ve helped myself in that I’ve began to voice my concerns better and advocate for myself more, set up my first therapy appointment, and had my first story published on here, but the other day my final grades for the semester were just posted, and for the first time in my college years, I got nothing lower than a B! This was definitely my toughest semester #MentalHealth wise, but also my best academic semester, so this was just the news I needed to close out the year. #thereishope #MightyTogether
