Uncontrollable

I literally don't know what's happening with me. I can't explain what's in my mind and what I feel and it's hard for me to control my emotions. I get mood swings very often like a lot of times in a day. The factors of my life like relationships with friends, a loved one and my relatives really get affected by what I'm feeling. I also feel like angry and irritable that I can't control but I just keep it inside or I just sometimes wanna kill myself or hurt myself or break things, well I actually did hurt myself and broke things. I have bad anger issues now. I don't know, all my emotions that I feel are in a mess. It's hard to explain. There is so much problems that I can't handle and I can't cope easily with life anymore, like doing basic things or going to school.
#Depression #MentalIllness #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Anxiety #alwaysguilty #feelingworthless #hopeless #Uncontrollable