I’m living with chronic intense spine pain with nerve damage and muscle atrophy in my lower body. Just a few weeks ago I was in a wheelchair for eleven days straight and could not walk at all. I haven’t been able to do anything besides the bare basics of caring for myself and my pup. Yes, the bare basics. I’m not in a wheelchair right this minute but I cannot walk without my rollator or walker with my attached cane. It’s been that way for a long time now, years.
Anyway, I’m trying to walk (via walker) and track my steps, push myself a little more each day.
The pain, burning and numbness take over my body and I have to stop repeatedly to bend my spine forward and relieve the pain and pressure, ease the burning. It’s horrible and the pain sucks but still, I want my life back and I’m not going down without a whole lot more fighting (again). Yes, I’ve been living with chronic pain my entire adult life, so it’s been an ongoing battle for years.
The problem I’m having right now and daily is: when I’m pushing for mobility and trying to save my lower body (mid spine to feet) from being permanently paralyzed I’m fighting nerve damage that only relieves with ice for hours (mid to low spine and bum and hips) but muscle spasms that only relieve with heat (legs/feet).
Just exactly how much muscle spasms/spasticity is too much and how do I know if I’m pushing way too much or just not enough? I’m really not knowing and I know if I don’t keep fighting and just stay in whats comfortable and least painful I won’t be out of the wheelchair very long. Any tips, advice? I welcome them all please. This pain is making me a little bit nuts and I’m using ice and heat at the same time to combat the different parts and symptoms on my lower body. I’m exhausted and frustrated to say the least. #ChronicPain #FailedBackSurgery #Nervedamage #DDD #Osteoarthritis #spinestimulator #migratedleadwire #Exercise #Neuropathy #MuscleWasting #Tremors #numb #tingling #Burning #Spasticity #musclespasms #mobility #Fibromyalgia
My body has burned endlessly throughout the night. I lay anxiously watching the clock as it approached 3am. After no sleep only a pain endured night, I wipe my eyes throw on some clothes and head to work . Only prepared to work until doctor's office opened up to get some sort of relief. I don't know how much longer I can do this with every "Flareup" it only becomes worse. I do good to work 3 days a week and have 4 days to rest up but even just 3 days is a massive struggle #Fibro #Pain # tired
I have a #Tumor on the side of my foot by my heel and under the ankle. I have surgery to remove it tomorrow, but last night it woke me out of a deep sleep with the most horrible #Burning #Pain #he . It felt like I was stung by a wasp and my whole foot and heel were effected. Has anyone else felt this?
It feels like I’m in hell. This feeling that Nothing I can do resembles comfort. Every place I go is pain. I try to get outside, or do some art, or see a movie, or watch tv, or masturbate, or see a hooker (which I don’t do anymore but it never helped anyway) and no matter what I do or where I go I feel empty. I feel alone in the world, like there is nothing left for me. Nothing is interesting anymore. Everything is just black. I know that this feeling goes away eventually, but how does it get triggered? Usually by obsession. Love=pain