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I wanted to share something I experienced last night.

I had an emotional breakdown and released all emotions I had suppressed for a long while…

I prayed and gave everything I struggled with to Yahweh. This time aloud.

Somewhere along my prayer I realised that there was calm in my heart.

This calm extended to a feeling of total peace, being loved and safety. So intense that I can’t really put it into words. It was really beyond that. Like the total opposite of feeling overwhelmed by the pain of the world, if you get my meaning.

The last time I felt Yahwehs presence so intensely was when I was thirteen and eight.
So it’s been a while.

I must confess, in the last years I have been lukewarm.
I realised that and tried to get my fire back.
Anyways that experience rekindled the fire inside me and I just wanted to share it.

The knowledge that I’m not alone in this fight, that His presence is always there was so calming. At that time I felt ready to face anything.

And that’s something I want to achieve later in life. I struggle so much with my mental health. But someday I want to be someone who stands so firm in her faith and relationship with Yahweh that she isn‘t shaken by the things of the world.

This was quite personal but it really meant much to me so I wanted to share this.

#Christian #Depression #MajorDepressiveDisorder #CPTSD

Found this Poem..." this to shall pass"

Oh, my soul
Oh, how you worry
Oh, how you're weary, from fearing you lost control
This was the one thing, you didn't see coming
And no one would blame you, though
If you cried in private
If you tried to hide it away, so no one knows
No one will see, if you stop believing

Oh, my soul
You are not alone
There's a place where fear has to face the God you know
One more day, He will make a way
Let Him show you how, you can lay this down
'Cause you're not alone

Here and now
You can be honest
I won't try to promise that someday it all works out
'Cause this is the valley
And even now, He is breathing on your dry bones
And there will be dancing
There will be beauty where beauty was ash and stone
This much I know

Oh, my soul
You are not alone
There's a place where fear has to face the God you know
One more day, He will make a way
Let Him show you how, you can lay this down

I'm not strong enough, I can't take anymore
(You can lay it down, you can lay it down)
And my shipwrecked faith will never get me to shore
(You can lay it down, you can lay it down)
Can He find me here
Can He keep me from going under

Oh, my soul
You're not alone
There's a place where fear has to face the God you know
One more day, He will make a way
Let Him show you how, you can lay this down
'Cause you're not alone
Oh, my soul, you're not alone

#MajorDepressiveDisorder #Depression #MentalHealth #CPTSD #Christian

I‘m currently reading a book about christian mindfulness.
It teaches mindfulness but sets it apart from its buddistic roots and focuses on our connection to God.
The book is written from a clinical social worker and family therapist for other therapists and other working in the social sector.
It has many exercises for practicing mindfullness in all kind of situations.

Even though I’m getting through it slowly, (Been reading it since March…) it had a big impact for me.

So I just wanted to share it with anyone who is interested.

Maybe it can help you too.

#mindfullness #Christian #Depression #MajorDepressiveDisorder #Anxiety #MentalHealth #PTSD

#Christian

Yesterday was Sunday in my part of the world. I had to run two important errands and the trip took longer than expected. Therefore, I missed attending my typical church service. I asked the Lord if there was another church service I should attend. To my surprise, I realized that I could attend a Catholic Mass at a local parish. But I am a so-called Protestant. Thankfully, I was never raised in a church—as a child—where I had to learn all of the proper religious practices. So, to Mass I went!😁

The Catholic service was great! But the homily, or “sermon” according to us non-Catholics, was the very message I had to hear. The young priest shared how the New Testament story about the “Rich Young Ruler” shows us how that young religious law abiding man missed out on all the things the Lord could have done with his life because he simply did NOT want to give up, or sell, his possessions (Matthew 19:16-22). And the Lord could have used him to touch many lives…if he only surrendered his possessions. Sad.

The priest then encouraged his flock by telling us how obedience to God and Christ might require us to loose EVERYTHING. However, when we do surrender all, the Lord can work through us to fulfill his purposes in our lives. And being used by the Lord surpasses the value associated with the items/possessions we might lose or “sell.” His words addressed an ongoing challenge I have encountered after a 2017 move involved losing my home and pets, to my shock and surprise. I often still ask the Lord, “Why did that happened?”

After the service, the Lord allowed the priest and I to converse. That was so cool! I shared how the Lord used his message to help me understand an experience I had to face. Also, the priest allowed me to share my story of how the Lord “saved” me, which is a word Catholics typically do not use because salvation is ongoing rather than a one time event: i.e., I ‘was’ saved. However, the priest was greatly impacted by this testimony of the Lord’s redemption, especially since this emotionally troubled teen had one goal in life: suicide!

As our conversation came to an end, the priest gingerly asked if he could pray for me when he learned that I have two physical health issues, and one will require an upcoming major surgery. I was pleased he asked to pray for me, and gladly accepted his offer. So he prayed.

When I drove home I said, “Lord, I think you designed this entire morning.” My extended trip allowed me to converse with the priest, tell him how the Lord used his message in my life, and receive his prayer. Thank you LORD!

I am therefore SO GLAD the Lord breaks the traditional politics associated with attending church. He is more interested in showing his ability and desire to relate with us rather than making sure we subject ourselves to denominational differences.

May you have a wonderful week of obedience to Christ! His directions will bless you above and beyond your imagination! #TheMighty #Christian

Today my schedule is open, like, this is NOT the norm. However, I woke with a drive to GET GOING! So, whilst half asleep, I started the chore of making myself ready to make something happen! But as I briefly sat to fashion myself, I had a thought telling me to take seven deep breaths.

Upon the completion of this slowing down instruction, I returned to my room, sat still, and told the Lord, “I am actually tired, really tired.” #honesty to God and self can move mountains. I therefore returned to bed and started reading and studying a wonderful Bible verse. Once that was complete, I viewed my weather app: 90 degrees heat wave. Mind you, I was heading outdoors to work in an open field.

Did the Lord part a sea for me, this morning? Did the Lord protect his child from the heat today? Did the Lord intervene by stopping me from making myself habitually busy? Did the Lord let me know that this day is reserved for me to enjoy his divinely gifted day off? So I say, #Depression #Anxiety and #Guilt , you can leave, for #busyness can take a backseat—until tomorrow—because this day is reserved for stillness by my Heavenly Father!

Yes, to you, #TheMighty #Christian , we can be #christ like and sleep on a wind-blown and tossed about boat, especially in the midst of the storm(s) called #Life . How? Well, we can take heed to obey Jesus’s words inviting us to “abide in Him” and “follow Me.” And that I will do!

Today’s Agenda:
I am heading to the back of the boat because it is time for me to take a nap!

#rest IS #stregnth !😁
#peace not #PTSD !

These last months, 🫨 (but June has brought me to my knees). Here I am, with insomnia with another week old migraine and a tired anxious body. 🤷🏻‍♀️ Maybe tomorrow ?
#ChronicVestibularMigraine
#Insomnia
#Fibromyalgia
#Christian