Feelingdown

Im feeling a little low today. Last night, I got into a little disagreement with my partner. I falsely blamed him for something I should not have blamed him for, and I felt bad about what I said and apologized to him. I messaged him to just make sure that he was okay, and that I felt I said something wrong to upset him, and he responded by saying, “Um okay?” I replied by saying, “Um okay what? Do you want me to leave you alone?” There was no response until this morning when he replied by saying, “What are you talking about??? 🫤 I said what I said because you’re assuming that you upset me….if you upset me you would know because I would make it known.” So, I responded by saying, okay, I don't want to fight or argue, I realize it's a me problem and I keep falsely assuming that you are upset with me without evidence. I apologize for it. I really am sorry. Im not perfect, I may slip up sometimes, but I'm still learning. I feel like I'm the problem. Am I really the problem? I don't know.

° " So On Sunday And Monday... I Was Feeling Great Tuesday And Today. I'm Feeling Super Defeated... I Had To Call Into Work. I Hate Loosing Time. Because I Really Can't Afford That Luxaury. I Have To Go Into Work Tomorrow. Ugh! I Feel Like A Lazy Failure When I'm Sick. It Really Annoy's Me So Much. Idk Why My Co-worker's Come Into Work. I'm High Risk For Covid. I Have Like 3 Co-worker's Who Come In All The Time Coughing And Sneezing. And I Can't Really Get Away From Them. Or The Customer's. So I Got Strucked Down. Sigh! I Don't Wish To Sleep All Day. But My Body Is In Massive Pain. Something Is Going Around At Work. Like Covid Or The Flu. Because Nobody Care's They Need Sale's. ° Sincerely, Your Sick Poet ~ Skaoi Kvitravn #sick #Feelingdown

Lately i’ve been struggling with trying to find a balance between taking care of my body and mind and my daily duties. In my family i carry a lot of responsibility with work around the house, cooking, and even taking care of my younger sister. When i was diagnosed with fibromyalgia i knew it was going to be a struggle taking care of all this with the way my body feels while still trying to enjoy my youth years and have fun. Well it’s been a little over a year now and i still can’t find a balance. There really is no balance at all. I bust my ass working at home and it creates so much stress, pain, and negative emotions. I feel like i never have time to take a break and care for my body and mind the way it really needs and it’s causing me so much pain physically and mentally. I’m always being asked to take care of something and it’s exhausting. I love my family and i love to help but they still see me as the healthy 20 year old who could do anything when really i’m the 22 year old who gets exhausted from taking a shower… I guess i just came here to vent and get that off my chest but if anyone has advice on my situation i’m all ears. #Fibromyalgia #burntout #Feelingdown

The media told us the world will be back to "Normal", in a year or to. Then being told to wake up from this fantasy world. about normal life. All during the#COVID19 #covidanxiety lockdown. I had the hope and feelings of "normal" life. My hope of people being vaccinated is what will brings things back to normal. Of course some changes are going to be made. I get that and understand. That's going to be expected. I think it's just why people say things. All the negative feelings. It can become toxic and bring you down. #Feelingdown #Depression So what does that even mean? We all should keep wearing masks forever. Keep school/work online. Keep staying 6 feet apart Keep #SocialAnxiety Keep Social distancing? Don't go back to doing social events. That we keep staying home? I mean of course i understand people many not want to hug or shake hands. I do like people keeping space in lines and what not.

I do understand the persons post about not connecting with people on here. Finding it hard, I agree. Sometimes it takes time.

I think I'm being bullied at work. This lady always tells me to do things and assumes I'm just a cook and cleaner (I'm an allied health practitioner) today she told me to put on gloves and get something out of the toilet that a kid had put in there
I have gotten to the point I don't want to go to work anymore and I only just finished my first month. I talked about it today at a meeting and just started crying, others have mentioned it happening to me before and were concerned about it.

Anyway it's going to be bought up to the big boss and I'm terrified of what's going to happen, what if this women hurts me or my partner or our cats? It wouldn't be hard for her to find my address. I feel sick from it and I really just want to move back to the city I was at before accepting this job. I just wish I could go back and not apply for this job or not have told people about it and ignored it. I don't want anyone to get in trouble and I kept people back later today because of talking about it and I don't want those staff to get in trouble because in supposed to leave there 1 hour before I left today.

#Anxiety #Depression #Paranoia #Bullying #Work #MentalHealth #Feelingdown

No matter how hard for me the outside world still turns #Feelingdown #awholelottafeeling

I’ve been on the low end for almost two months now and things have been getting darker as the weeks go by. I know that I have to go back to see another doctor again, maybe I might have to take medication this time around. I do plan to make some changes in my diet and see if that helps. Rearranging my bedroom is another idea. What I really need to do is to get motivated to do what I need to do to move forward in every aspect of my life. #Depression #change #MentalHealth #Low #Feelingdown