Grieving My Life
I recently turned 39, and I’m dreading turning 40. Reaching a milestone age is so overwhelming and daunting. I was very depressed turning 30 and seriously considered suicide six months later because of how my life was going. I did a lot, though, to create a better life for myself by building much better self-esteem and confidence, and developing much better self-awareness. However, my personal life barely improved. I’m losing hope in finding love and I feel that time is running out. Once I turn 40, it’s over. I’m trying to stop myself from crying my eyes out, or even curl up into a ball on the floor and sob hysterically. I fear I’m going to suffer a severe depression that will ruin all my focus on life right now. But I feel like a serious failure in life because there’s no love in it.
Does anyone have any advice? How can I cope with all this? #severedepression #BipolarDisorder #Bipolar1Disorder #Love #milestones #Aging #Relationships