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Hi everyone I hope everyone is doing well today and I am praying for you all I’m having a rather anxious day today just can’t shake it at all I’ve tried cold therapy exposure I’ve tried tea I’ve had a shower I just can’t shake this feeling it’s in the pit of my stomach a little like an adrenaline rush my heart rate is through the roof I’ve done all I needed to do to stay calm and self soothe if you will but I just can’t get a grip of it please pray for me today it’s going to be a long day
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I posted a while ago after getting a concussion. Things have gotten so bad since. I don’t know how to keep my job - I have zero energy. I’ve gone into an intense irritability, depression and anger mode. My suicidal ideation seems more like I have to do this more than ever. I am so isolated and alone. I go on this site - but when I connect they stop replying. I have no friends or any family - that want to help. I even begged my narcisstic mother to please help me and she blew me off repeatedly. I feel like I need to be hospitalized but I’m drug resistant - and going in to just be pumped with drugs that will ultimately cost me maybe a year of my life dealing with the side effects of coming off another one that doesn’t work - even when I taper off - even when we try a different class. Always the same. The low pay shrink I see just wants me to keep trying drugs. I see him this Monday - and I don’t know what to say to him. We see my experience differently. I know there are causes and effects - he just sees You Need Antidepressants. Are there any treatment centers that don’t push drugs? Are any affordable treatment centers? What do I do about work? How do I keep doing this? If you knew my history being sick all my life and struggling. I need help. I pray God will help me see myself as strong enough to get through but I’m sick to my stomach all the time and with a headache - I feel wrong inside. I feel more off. My living environment is so stressful I never get good sleep or can rest. I am miserable. I don’t know how to get myself through this - I’m so empty inside and overwhelmed by my experiences inside and out. #CheckInWithMe #SuicidalThoughts #Hospitalization #prayforme #scared

It’s been months of treatment for my depression and I’m not feeling better. Everyone keeps asking how I’m feeling, and I know they expect me to say I feel better, but I don’t. I feel like I’m always letting everyone down. Mostly my daughter. I feel terrible she has to watch me battle this depression. Fighting for my life and to find joy & peace again. It feels like I’ll never be okay, I’ll never experience “happiness” again. It’s been so long of feeling like this, I don’t think I know what it feels like to not feel like this; the crushing weight of despair, worthlessness, hopelessness and helplessness. My anxiety and depression have become my only friend. Where sometimes, I’m even comforted by the consistency of the darkness. I’m so glad you’re here, I feel slightly less alone. I’m happy I found a place where I can be open and honest. It seems the people closest to me that I open up to, either can’t relate, or can’t deal and leave.
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I hope this rehab is the answer.

People...

I don't want to bore you with my journey, 'cos there's a lot I can't share anyhow. BUT...I would appreciate if you could just pray for me or encourage me to keep going, day by day. I'm doing the best I can - people can see it - but at times I just get so starved and I feel I need the extra motivation or encouragement to keep going. So, if you're so inclined, please pray for me and my family, or encourage me to keep pressing on. Thank you.

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I just got out of the hospital. Again. Second time in less than a year. And here I am, faced with a huge life change. I’m in a wheelchair, and some things are harder for me. One of those things is losing weight. I am at least 30lbs too heavy as I type this, and it’s negatively affecting my lifestyle in a major way. On top of that, I suck at developing cleaning habits, something else I am faced with starting right now. I can’t afford to lose these battles, but have no idea how I’m gonna win this fight or how long it’s gonna take. I am completely overwhelmed. #prayforme #CheckInWithMe #Depression #Anxiety #weightgain #Wheelchair