sleep

We need sleep but it hurts to lay down, it hurts to stand, it hurts to sit. If you lay on your back your si joints are going out of place, your side and your shoulders, hips and knees go out, your stomach and it’s your neck and shoulders!!! Very frustrating and so very tired and hurting so bad. I just want to sleep for longer than 3 or 4 hours at a time. #bendy #HEDS #Sleep #sotired #Everythinghurts

#Sleep #Tuesday

I love having someone who understands my brain, but it's so hard sometimes too. I am on hour 5 of resisting compulsively texting her, after receiving a barrage of compulsive texts from her and two compulsive calls. She knew what was happening and was trying really hard to resist, and I think she was eventually successful. But I am still having wave after wave of what-ifs about her safety. Logically I know she's probably asleep, but of course that does nothing for the doubts. For hour one I just handwrote a journal entry to her, and I thought that did it, but the compulsion keeps coming back. I wonder if I should just throw myself fully into an exposure session and try to speed up the process of no longer feeling like trash, but it's so late and I should have been asleep an hour ago (dr appointment, office hours, and lab meeting tomorrow, good lord), so maybe I should just rawdog it until I fall asleep. When the thoughts are so bad that I keep involuntarily hyperventilating for short periods, I don't know if an exposure would help or hurt.

I have however come up with a fun strategy: pretending that her compulsive texts are actually attempts to type out whale vocalizations. It removes the focus from the content of the messages and makes it easier for me to resist reassuring her and instead do/say things that are actually helpful (which is sometimes doing nothing). It's hard when it's relationship OCD-related, like today, because I automatically want to take it seriously and personally, but the silliness of imagining that all those texts are just like OOOOOoooaaauauuuuUu whale noises does kind of help.

#ObsessiveCompulsiveDisorder #ERP #ROCD #copingstrategies #Sleep #HarmOCD #Relationships #Autism #CheckInWithMe

I know how tough this is. It’s been over 10 years and I’m sure I’ve shaved time off my life. Especially with all the recent info on sleep
Importance for longevity. BUT I’m getting more sleep now and it’s turning into a habit most from being extremely strict with the hygiene. #Sleep #Insomnia #SleepApnea

When one can't sleep well...
Right now I struggle with sleep deprivation without medication. I'm going to set a time for bedtime and try reading on blinklist for half an hour. Just subscribed. Meditation is another idea, plus music.
Also try not to nap through the day as it can affect you sleeping at night. anyone else have this problem?

After seeing a post from Arianna Huffington on (of all places) LinkedIn, I decided to charge all my devices (not just my phone) outside of my room to improve my sleep. It’s made a difference and nowadays, I open my eyes about fifteen minutes (at best) before my normal wakeup time.