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Not stopping#artheals #6 ×6#breaktowrite #stop
I know I am being pushed aside, as I had been before.I am disappointed in a group of people as they are me.A person who munipulated me for the last four years,has tested me, ridiculed, mocked my therapy, my lack of support and lack of family,my lack of personal responsibility. People seem to forget Who I was and do not understand what happened.
I am disgusted, with what I let slide.I am not a toy, a joke, a Bet, a quitter, a mean arsehole. And to put me in the position, to question my reality is sicker, than any diagnosis I've received, this time I wrote it all down. I am a woman,who has a complex medical diagnosis, not a faux disabled person, you feel the need to challenge, for your own amusement.To test, watch, munipulate, judge and jury the worst time in my life, and for anyone to make up diagnosis about Me, to mask your own Narrcisst BS....You are a sicker, than I am.
I would have kept quiet, if it weren't for the fact that, the closest to me, have been munipulating me, for two years.
I have been clear, forced to look at them, and now, I wait for the day, I am rid, of this. It, has zero integrity, honor or loyalty to me and mine, because it, never did, I spoke up and that bothers, only the manipulator.
I won't keep your secrets because they, were never my burden to keep. I have spent my entire life holding too many, for others. I have been pushed, gaslit, mocked and tested, enough. And now I see all of you, clear. I will take the fall.
I feel sorry for them. I get hating me,over emotions,really, but to never have closure or any resolve in place of avoidance, to never express without her approval first, to be waiting till your actual free, to not feel she is in control of your life. She made sure you won't be now. She knew, the day I told her what and how I will be getting worst, that was the day, she decided, I was out. I recall every day, more exposure, the better.
I forgave my own. What she has done, it is severed, no relevance to my life now.I have zero respect for Anyone taking advantage of a mental illness, of their sanity, of their reality.That is wrong. The moral high ground has no standing when you go that low on someone, that you say, you love.We are not the same.
I do not need to be punished by her or any of his 500plus friends.They were not a part, of our life.Ever.That is something he cannot deny, ever. She is, nothing to me now.As a woman, I saw her cattiness and ways years ago, I gave her self entitled, arrogant self, Grace, for him, too many times.....As a good wife does.
