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This made me think about if I’m building a wall to separate myself from others, if I’m protecting myself from someone, or if I’m simply trying to divide others. Am I pushing you away or am I just afraid to be you?
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I’m so tired of pretending I’m fine when I’m not. Have you ever been so stressed out with everything that you forget about yourself? Because I do all the time, I feel useless, worthless, unneeded, and worst of all I feel like I’m making other people’s lives hard just by existing. I scared myself the other day, but not in the way most people think. I was driving to my “home” when the thought crossed my mind , what if I just close my eyes, take a deep breath, and just press the gas pedal until I feel nothing. Just nothing no pain, worry, anxiety, depression, or anything..... just calm. I mean there is no one else on the road and I would have went off a deep ridge , so nobody else would have been hurt. And as I’m thinking about it I realized that I was doing what I was thinking. At the last moment I opened my eyes and, slammed on the breaks, and turned my car. My peace left once I had done that and the dread kicked in. The only thing I was thinking about now was that I didn’t want my mother to have to bury her only daughter. I just couldn’t let her go through that . But I’m scared it may happen again and I don’t know if I will be able to fight it back in time.
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I wish I could just accept these things rather than yearning for more all the time. And feeling cheated when I don’t get it.
I see a friend and I feel better for a few hours, but then I’m empty. I make something to eat, I feel better for ten minutes and then I feel empty again.
Left to my own devices I go into screensaver mode or fantasy mode. Feel incapable of doing anything meaningful for myself.
Sometimes while driving I will space out while still watching the road. When I am in this state I have this need, this feeling of pressing the gas and turning the wheel. This happens a lot more than I would like. The only thing stopping me from actually acting on this feeling is my two wonderful kids. I could not imagine them having to live their lives without me. But no matter how much I tell myself that I would never do it, I always have that deep feeling like I’m being pulled in to #TheVoid
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