Yesterday, I read the Daily Check-in and it was talking about honesty at least to oneself. I’ve never posted here before but I felt the need to share this realization.
That is how I feel: unrepairable. I feel that I am damaged beyond repair and I have to keep getting (medication) adjustments a few times a year because I keep cracking/shifting and it’s exhausting.
I hate this because it’s the anxiety and depression talking. Anxiety talks in your own voice (in your head) and convinces you of all these terrible things. Depression lies and steals everything it can away. It brings pain into your life, whether you’ve had it there before or not, and can make you question your sanity with “intrusive thoughts” as they’re called because suddenly these thoughts and images that seem to be beamed into your head appear, randomly.
So much does not make sense. It’s like your brain has been broken into numerous pieces and while it’s trying to heal, it try to talk to the other pieces causing such chaos and disconnect.
Again....It’s frustrating and exhausting.
#Depression #dailycheckin #Anxiety