Not feeling so mighty..
First day of work, was excited and proud of myself. Everything was perfect, I had been planning it for two weeks so nothing could go wrong. Right? Well.. I guess my mental health had other plans for me.. I'm on the other side of what I would call a crawl in a hole attack (panic of being alone but being a disappointment to those around you), which gets severe enough for an ER trip normally.. thank goodness for Mobile Crisis Lines.. I guess my PTSD and anxiety wasn't ready.. I have another job (different) lined up so I don't feel too bad but.. I let everyone down on what was supposed to be the best day ever because my stupid head couldn't handle being alone.. (The work I would have done would have been in a client's home, 1-1 care).. #Anxiety #PTSD #Disappointments #lost #dontknowwhattodo