I don’t really know where I’m going with this thought, but I need to get it out.
Halloween is approaching. Almost all of my friends have children (I don’t). Lately, conversations with most of them consist of how annoyed they are that the kids can’t trick-or-treat etc. I truly do understand that missing out on traditions is disappointing but I literally want to scream because that’s what they’re complaining about right now. Meanwhile, I’m in and out of hospital with serious health issues, it’s impossible to get appointments with specialists that I need to see. I can’t go in to work at the job I love. I can’t see my family and my husband has taken on everything. I do feel bad for minimizing what they’re feeling but I would consider myself lucky if that’s what I was concerned about right now. I have begun to isolate myself. I’ve deleted my Facebook account and it’s not really my priority to respond to my friends. “Thinking positively” and “getting fresh air,” will not fix my heart, blood disorder, gastrointestinal issues and the list goes on. I can’t hear that anymore. I have an incredible husband and I’m very fortunate to still have my mom and dad and I suppose I should just be content with that for now. #SinusTachycardia #GeneticDisorders #Hypertension #Pain #MentalHealth #UlcerativeColitis #Clotting disorder #exhausted