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Grow Up?!?!?! 😤😠😡🤬

If one more person says that I’m too old for this, or that I should be over it by now, or “that’s still going on?” I’m going to completely lose it.
Way too many people think self injury is a teenage problem and that it’s just for attention and that you’re gonna get “bored” and grow out of it. And when they see me, at 39 years old, still struggling, in fact a lot worse than when I was in high school, they think that it’s my fault. They assume that I just haven’t tried hard enough or done the right things or that I’m just being immature cause “adults don’t do that kind of thing”. It makes me furious, because I know that it’s not me who has failed (well, I mean, I have, but that’s besides the point), it’s the stupid, broken system that has failed me.
I am fully aware that no one can save me from myself, that I need to accept responsibility for my actions, etc. But this is an actual addiction. No one looks at alcoholics or people with drug addictions and says “really? You’re way too old to be addicted to that!” or “grow up already! Aren’t you tired of that yet?” They pick them up and clean them off and take them to rehab where they’ll spend a month or 2 and come out the other end good as new. What I wouldn’t give to be able to check in some place and have someone take care of me long enough to be able to call myself recovered. That kind of place doesn’t exist, or if it does, I’m probably too old to go there. Not like I could afford it anyway. Rehab, of any kind, really is just for the rich and famous.

Sorry that this is such a big, long rant…. I was due for a good venting session.
But seriously? How many of you agree with me? Or, can I just ask- if you’re comfortable with it, could you put your age in the comments? And how long you’ve been self harming for?

#Selfharm #Selfinjury #Ageism #Unfairjudgement #pleasehelpme #misunderstood

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Nothing can ever be simple.

I have a question for the women. I had a hysterectomy on September 1st of 2020. Everything was removed but my ovaries 😩. I am 41 years old and single, so my baby making days were over. I was having severe pain in my bladder and it caused my stomach to bloat which made the pain worse. I started to see blood in my urine and that's when I decided to go to the ER🤨 To make a long story short I had Aydenmyosis its when fibroids push through your uterine wall. I tried Depo- Provera shot, and I morphed into a monster 👹.
So my gyno said the best thing you can do is have a hysterectomy. So I did. What a nightmare. I went in thin and athletic came out with totally different body. It has taken away my desire to want to be attractive. I feel like nothing. The worst part of it all is I gained 20 lbs and I am unable to lose a pound. Has anyone else had a bad experience after a hysterectomy? #BodyDysmorphicDisorder # disgusted#pleasehelpme #Abuse #SuicideSurvivor #WTFhappened

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I #Sleep like a baby ! sleep has never been consistent. It’s really all over the place. I do have sleep apnea, but could get comfortable with the mask. I have a retainer but it doesn’t seem to be helping.

But then in last month my sleep hit a new low. I sleep like a baby with colic. I’m awake every other hour or every hour. Sometimes it takes a long while to fall back asleep and sometimes it’s a little bit. I don’t think it’s the apena because it’s never been that serious.

I am not responding to melatonin, Xanax, (helps me fall asleep bit not stay) and Ativan.

Any suggestions with meds/vitamins/essential oils what helps you sleep?

#Sleep #anotherhour #pleasehelpme #

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#Fibro #EDS #bonepain ##pleasehelpme #Fibromyalgia

My name is Jordan and today I had a really scary weird experience with my body one that I have never had before. I have EDS, Fibromyalgia, Endometriosis, IBS, and Interstitial cystitis to name a few. Today I ended up in the ER due to a new pain in my bones. My fibromyalgia normally hangs out in my bone but today something felt different and very very wrong. Today my bones felt like my bones where made of hot lead cement. It starts at my sacrum and then radiates out down then bones in my legs anand and up my spine but only as high as my waist and no higher. It get a million times worse when i stand and walk. The ER did blood tests, urine tests and a CT scan and all of those came back normal, so they discharged me with no answers and a small amount of pain relief. The ER doctor theorized that it may be sacral inflammation but that was a big maybe. I am desperately looking for any help that yall can offer and or any ideas on where to go from here. Please help and thank you!!


Chronic illness and depression... TRIGGER WARNING!

I feel terrible. I’m such a burden to everyone around me. One of my sisters thinks I’m not even sick, and the other sister says she can’t live here because I’m sick all the time. It’s incredibly upsetting.

Every person I meet or become friends with tend to quickly run as far away from me as possible. I am not taking this well. I just want to cry for the rest of my life.

I started self harming again, just so I can feel something other than disgust at myself. I’ve been referred to the mental health team but it could be a while before they’re table to see me... I hate BPD so much...

#chronicillnesswarrior #POTS #EDS #NAFLD #BPD #InterstitialCystitis #Diabetes #Depression #Selfharming #triggerwarning #pleasehelpme


What’s the point?

I am distraught.

I have been doing EVERYTHING right. I’ve cut down my carbs, I’m eating more protein and vegetables. I’m cycling and I’m going for walks... I brought my HBA1C down to 59 from 78.

And yet... I’ve put on nearly two stone. I’ve gone from just over 16stone... To just under 18stone. (About 20lbs).

I feel sick to my stomach and I can’t stop crying.

What’s the point in trying if there are never any results? 😞 I’m so close to just giving up.

#chronicillnesswarrior #Diabetes #Overweight #Obesity #gainingweight #weight #Scales #Upset #depressed #pleasehelpme



Since I had covid 19 I really have had a hard time eating drinking out of plastic cups even touching my own food .. The thought of me touching things or being touched makes cringe .. is there any suggestions I can take that may help .... #ple #Pleasedonttouchme #pleasehelpme


What should I do?

I know I am undiagnosed. I do not know what to do 😔 Usually whenever I have suicidal ideation I'll will go somewhere, a crowded place to be specific. I chose that kind of place because it helps me to realize how blessed I am. But because of this pandemic, I do not know how to cope. 😢 I am very worried because my behavior is changing. I am not as used to be. 😭 I am not productive in my work (work from home), I ate too much sometimes or nothing at all, my body aches for no reason, I tend to isolate myself to everyone, and I cry a lot. Any help would be appreciated. Thank you. #Undiagnosed #MentalHealth #pleasehelpme


#feel like im sinking

I'm not sure what's going on with me but I'll just say I should've listened when I was told not to hide my feelings. Everyone has an idea of what they want me to do and I'm not passionate about any of those things, I just wanna be happy but that's not important to any of them.
Itscausing me a lot of stress and damage ,most people say I've changed but I'm broken and I can't think of anything else except hurting myself. I lost my granny earlier this year and I haven't healed yet. I often feel very numb and lost.I have no one to talk to because everyone around just thinks I'm some sort of robot that doesn't feel or have any emotions.
Hiding my feelings is a full time job that's very exhausting and i think THEMIGHTY has people that understand and way more supportive. #pleasehelpme