Suicidal Thoughts

Hi, my name is curiousOne. My new boyfriend is so wonderful but struggles with bpd symptoms, depression and suicidal thoughts 💔 😔 . I want to learn how to help him best when he withdraws from me. Ty 😊 🙏

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I just had a freaking creepy nightmare and now I’m hesitant to go back to sleep. I wish sleep wasn’t a necessity. I feel like wanting to die.

I just upped my sleep medication to 2 pills instead of one right now because I’m so fucking tired of this. If this doesn’t work, perhaps I really should end my life. I can’t take anymore of this. The stress dreams have been way too fucking constant lately, and we have yet found out exactly why. Even I’ve gotten over my stressors at times and many days have been great, yet I still get them. It wasn’t like this before!!! 😢😡

Also, I really wish that there was a dark mode for the Mighty app. I’m a big dark mode user and I often have to dim my screen to the lowest brightness setting just to write on here. Just a feature suggestion!

#MyAutismIsNotADisorder #MyAutismIsNotADisability #AutismSpectrum #Anxiety #GeneralizedAnxietyDisorder #OSTD #OtherSpecifiedTraumaDisorder #SuicidalIdeation #SuicidalThoughts #SuicideAttemptSurvivors #Trauma #StressDreams #dreams #Nightmares

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And not just because of that horrendous president. Everything costs so high these days, and more and more online programs are forcing us to pay for subscriptions and locking actual useful shit behind a paywall. What happened to stopping poverty?! We’re not made of money!! They’re only just making things worse…… even private and secure mail services like Mailfence.

And now I’m wondering about ending my life again. I’m just… so fucking sick of this shit. I’ve lost all faith in the US, and I hate being American. I’m sick of all of this talk about money and inflation, I’m sick of this president (why the fuck was he elected twice?!), I’m sick of feeling so ignored in this damn cruel world, I’m sick of this damn pain… I don’t want to be in a world that treats everyone and especially minorities so harshly…

#MyAutismIsNotADisorder #MyAutismIsNotADisability #Anxiety #GeneralizedAnxietyDisorder #OSTD #OtherSpecifiedTraumaDisorder #SuicidalIdeation #SuicidalThoughts #SuicideAttemptSurvivors #FeelingKindOfHopeless

IVE BEEN DEALING WITH CPTSD FOR 23 YEARS NOW. THE FLASHBACKS, NIGHTMARES, FIGHT OR FLIGHT, ISOLATION, ANXIETY, APATHY, SUICIDAL THOUGHTS AND BAKER ACTED 3 TIMES. I HAVE BEEN DOING EMDR THERAPY FOR A FEW MONTHS NOW AND THAT HAS SEEMED TO BE THE BEST FORM OF THERAPY FOR ME. BUT I STILL HAVE TIMES WHERE IM SO DEPRESSED I CANT SEEM TO GET OUT OF IT. I WORRY ABOUT MY 4 ADULT CHILDREN ALL THE TIME. ESPECIALLY ABOUT MY 27 YEAR OLD SON WHO HAS PTSD FROM BEING IN PRISON 3 YEARS. I GOT MARRIED AT 16 AND IM NOW 52 AND STILL MARRIED BUT I FEEL TERRIBLE FOR MY HUSBAND AS HOW I FEEL AFFECTS HIM. SOMETIMES I WISH I COULD JUST GO TO SLEEP AND NOT WAKE UP....

!!TW: suicidal thoughts, depression !!

DILUTING THE DARK

You don’t beat hell.



Stealing light



I watered the void


drop by drop


till it grew something


I wouldn’t walk back into that fire;


but if you cut that rot from my bones,


I’d bleed out the person I became.


The marks aren’t scars.


They’re fractures:


where the dark forced open


my ribs to show me


how little time


this heart has left.


Is today.

After coming down from my first ever major manic episode, I received disheartening news from my employer that I was let go. At that time, I have spiraled deep myself into depression that it seems impossible to get out of. I feel extremely suicidal ever since then. I didn’t have the mental clarity at that time, but a job loss shouldn’t cost me mental health or my life. it is just silly from hindsight. After months of bed rotting , social isolating , being in mental pain and struggling with suicidal thoughts . I realized that my mental health problem has become far worse than I initially realized: my cognitive functions have severely deteriorated to the point where I can’t seem to hold any conversation with anyone. I don’t know how to connect with anyone anymore. What’s worse is that I have problems recalling words and forming coherent sentences. I don’t even know how to speak to waiters when I tried to order food and inquire about the dishes. I have lost essential and basic skills as a human. This realization has pushed me to an edge , now my suicidal thoughts are stronger than ever. How can I even survive in this society as someone with such little to none communication skills ? How can I make friends when I have nothing in my brain. My brain is just so empty that it is so sad. I am one step away from taking my own life. I truly need help on how to restore my cognitive functions . This seems like forever. I feel scared because I don’t want to put my parents through extreme emotional pain, but the pain I am feeling has outweighed any other concerns I have. I am sorry that I am selfish. But before I kms, I do wanna try getting better. Does anyone have any guidances on how I can regain my cognitive functions and my language, communication skills? Also I feel extremely extremely lonely it is horrifying. #Bipolar #Suicide #Depression

Hi, I'm here because I have been struggling with the guilt of feeling depressed and having suicidal thoughts as a mother. I feel I am selfish for having these thoughts but I can't shake the feeling. I struggle with the things that run through my mind. And a Google search landed me here. I struggle to seek help out of fear. Like it's taboo for a mother to be depressed and want to fade away despite her endless love for her children. And the irony of it all is that I feel this way because I lost both my parents (cancer) in early adulthood. So why do I struggle with these thoughts? When I feel so alone in this world without them. How could I even think of leaving them to feel this way? It's a pain and hurt I do not wish on anyone. I am at the point where I know I need help and this seemed like a good start in my journey to heal.

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