On living with a healthy partner
(A venting post)
I am someone who has multiple autoimmune conditions and two mental health conditions. I have to be very careful about my health--get regular flu vaccinations, be diligent about washing my hands, stay away from sick people, get regular blood tests, work with specialists, etc..
My partner, on the other hand, is a clean slate in terms of health. At least, as far as he knows, since he hardly ever goes to a doctor or ever gets blood work done. #
I sometimes don't know how to reconcile this. I feel aghast, jealous, angry, and sad. It isn't fair that I am saddled with so much.
This afternoon I tested positive for Covid and couldn't make it into the urgent care clinic before it closed to fight for getting the antiviral. I will need to go in the morning.
"How am I this messed up?" I asked myself, before breaking down in tears, further clogging up my already suffering sinuses.