Csa

How do u deal with flashbacks ? You know it’s not happen now but everything still is so real and you just get taken right back there . You feel like you are nothing …. How can you get rid of this ?? This grossness ?? #Abuse #Csa #worthless #wishiwasdead #Hatemyself

I'm a bipolar and undiagnosed cptsd sufferer. I am an ex child protection social worker
I'm completing an MSc in adult mental health and am really interested in treatments using pyschadelics
Anyone had any success alleviating symptoms with these all #CPTSD #BipolarDisorder #Csa #Fibromyalgia #SexualAbuseSurvivors #SuicidalIdeation 🧙‍♀️❤️🙏🙂

Hello all. Through the past two years I’ve been getting little pieces of memories back of past csa… and now recently I connected some dots and suspect other instances of abuse with a different family member. I don’t actually have memories of abuse happening with this person, but I have had a weird uncomfortable feeling about this person for a while now. And since these new memories have come up of being with them, I now can’t stand thinking of them or seeing photos of them. It’s super triggering but I still don’t know why. There’s other little signs too about their behavior that makes me feel suspicious. Do I have good reason to believe they did something to me?

Dr Debi Silber has authored a book covering the way to rebuild after a life crisis centred on betrayal. This is great and I found her Ted Talk amazing. Does anyone else feel that the focus on women by Dr Silber in her writing maps really well to men also, especially survivors of child abuse, CSA and over coming adult relationships which experienced infidelity.

After having been through all these experiences, and over 30 years after the first abuse began (that I can remember) I’m finally coming to terms with it all. I am able to speak about each event, and am receiving treatment to help me on the path.

My next big hurdle is to forgive the perpetrators and to forgive myself. I have hated them all for so long for what they did, yet, they have all been the closet and most important figures in my developmental life. It has taken a complete reinvention to break the link to my past, and I feel that I am finally ready to forgive…the problem is…I have no idea where to begin.

I’m open to any suggestions.

Thank you for your time and patience.

Kind Regards.

Hello. I have never been involved in any kind of group like this, regardless of medium. I am a #Csa survivor, and just would like to be able to communicate with others who are trying to heal. I know that everyone’s story is unique and complicated, so, I won’t dwell on too much detail.
I have only made my CSA public recently after over 30 years of silence, having been abused by multiple siblings. I have been diagnosed with other mental health issues and am two years post spinal surgery and still in recovery. I am also 11 years sober from a very complicated period of multiple addictions.
Thank you in advance for your time and patience. I only hope I can help others in this group. #SOBER #CPTSD #MajorDepressionDisorder #Anxiety #ChronicPain

If anyone is interested, I was interviewed by Gloria Masters on her podcast Handing the Shame Back last week about my sibling sexual trauma journey: youtu.be/rb2hh_7kbaQ #ChildSexualAbuse #Csa #Trauma #SiblingSexualAbuse #SSA #SiblingSexualTrauma #SST #Incest #siblingstoo #Shame

Hi, my name is Kathy.
I have #CPTSD #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #ChronicDepression #Fibromyalgia #Arthritis am a #Csa survivor & #MORE 😑
I have tried EMDR but it hasn’t worked/helped me at all! Also Narrative Exposure therapy which was started by 2 different psychologists but never finished because 1 left the company & the other left for pregnancy 😟. I am 58 & have been seeing psychiatrist, psychologist, & had counseling starting at the age of 17 but my traumatic experiences started mostly at age 4. I was raised by a narcissistic “mother” & sexually abused by my brother.
My life is just existing now. I have lost faith in finding anyone who is actually able to help me & I feel so alone. I’m beginning to feel as I am losing my Hope which is the last thing that holds me together. I feel like I’m wasting space on this earth that should be used by someone who really needs it more than I. I’ve been fighting, struggling, & holding on for just about my whole life & I am very tired. I am very isolated & live in a country where I am not happy or “at home” since I arrived here in 1994. I also am hearing impaired which has made learning a new language & trying to fit in very difficult.
I am very lucky too have a daughter who loves me completely as well as 2 cats.
I am hoping to connect with some people & possibly be understood & maybe even learn about some other types of therapy for my type of issues.
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I put on a belt for the first time today in a long time. I just undid the belt and immediately had a flashback of my father. I remember him undoing his belt and taking his pants off. The memory is a blur after that and it wouldn’t surprise me if he touched me afterwards. I have history of csa from him. I think I’m gonna throw out my belt.. #Anxiety #CPTSD #PTSD #Depression #Csa #ChildhoodSexualAbuse #Childhoodtrauma #ChildhoodTraumaSurvivors