Degenerative Disc Disease

He was 6 weeks old when I got him so I was his dad not just an owner and I loved him dearly. My heart is broken the ray of sunshine that saved my soul in so many ways has passed away. We were just going to the vet for a checkup but that morning he was already acting strange panting uncomfortably and on the way there he was foaming at the mouth I had a bad feeling that today he might not make it. When I got to the vet they had to pull him out of my truck on a stretcher and he went inside and I waited until they called me in. The vet said your dog is in major distress and the prognosis isn't good so with a very heavy heart I made the choice to have him put to sleep he was 14 trying out another cancer medication would only hurt the dog.

So I write here to my dog papi loves you Mayak and you were the best companion I've ever had. Now you can play with your brother Moose in Heaven 💙❤️#MentalHealth #MuscleDysfunction #RareDisease #Depression #MuscularDystrophy #DegenerativeDiscDisease

I got these tulips for Mom because she is not feeling well. This is actually a second shot the pedals are opening up they are called Hocus Pocus Tulips Yellow with a orange flame.#MentalHealth #DegenerativeDiscDisease #MuscularDystrophy #Fibromyalgia #RareDisease #Disability #ChronicPain

My Garden and patio are blooming early because of a dry January here in the Sierra Mountains of CA. The Geranium, Daffodils, rosemary and Vinca showing colors. Just thought I would share on Valentine's day and all the tulips I just gave to mom because she was feeling blue 💙🙂#MentalHealth #DegenerativeDiscDisease #MuscularDystrophy #ChronicPain #RareDisease #Fibromyalgia #Depression #Anxiety #CervicalRadiculopathy #Hyperalgesia #Disability #Diabetes

Today is my buddy's birthday he is turning 14 and he's going to get a hamburger minus the dressing. This dog has seen me through some rough surgeries and brings me much needed sunshine. It's a bond like no other he loves me unconditionally and I love him the same way. My other dog passed three years ago but the three of us had countless trips to the lake, orthe beautiful mountains that surround us. He makes my day everyday and he now is seeing me through muscular dystrophy late onset so when he gets me out of the house walking around the property I forget my pain.🙂#MentalHealth #MuscularDystrophy #DegenerativeDiscDisease #Fibromyalgia #Disability #ChronicIllness #ChronicPain #Depression #Anxiety #ObsessiveCompulsiveDisorder

Nature never ceases to amaze me and this year we were lucky to have the most colorful patio to enjoy. I do repeat sometimes with my posts but this time I chose the ones that stood out. Mom and I really enjoy this healthy distraction together which makes it even more special. #DegenerativeDiscDisease #ChronicPain #MuscularDystrophy #RareDisease #Fibromyalgia #CervicalRadiculopathy #Diabetes #Disability #Depression

This geranium doesn't want to quit lasted two winters. Probably my favorite kind because of the vibrant contrast in color. Hope everyone can find some peace in nature when you get a chance 🙂#DegenerativeDiscDisease #MentalHealth #MuscularDystrophy #Anxiety #Fibromyalgia #ChronicPain #Disability #Depression #RareDisease #CervicalRadiculopathy #Lumbarfusion #MuscleDysfunction

Just wanted to share some pictures of these Gazanias still going. Flowers and nature soothe my aching soul.#Anxiety #DegenerativeDiscDisease #Depression #MuscularDystrophy #Fibromyalgia #RareDisease #Disability #Diabetes #ChronicPain

The difference between exhaustion from exercise and the exhaustion from muscular dystrophy is pretty big. When you exercise and over do it you can rest up and eventually your body will return to normal. When you have muscular dystrophy your body in never rests and even if you were to lay down all day the next day you will still be in excruciating pain. There is no cure or treatment for my type of myopathy so the disease is progressing taking out all my skeletal muscles my legs and arms are getting weaker and the fear of quadrapelegia is in my mind because I don't even know what that looks like.

My point is sometimes there is no healing just a messed up version of ground hog day where I am in pain all day long every day. There is no getting through this or over it the condition will stop when my heart does. Couldn't tell you exactly why I still have a fervour for life I mean I still break down and cry from the intractable pain but life itself is still a gift what an amazing thing to be human. I'm also 58 so I have lived a good life until fourty when the back operations started. I am always looking for healthy distractions I love music, a good movie, the beauty that surround me where I live, and of course my dog Mayak and my Mom. I'm thankful to the mighty for letting me express myself and thanks to anyone who took the time to read this kind of boring tale#MentalHealth #DegenerativeDiscDisease #MuscularDystrophy #Fibromyalgia #ChronicIllness #Anxiety #Disability #etc