#IMPULSIVENESS #Depression #generalized #Anxiety #ADHD #CPTSD #BPD #OCD (compulsive shopping)
hey everyone..i posted a coup days ago about being very proud of myself for getting clean for a week..well i relapsed twice since then
i cannot control these impulses..if im j
not using then im online shopping and im not going to lie..i spend more then i make a month
im a caregiver so i make decent money and supposed to be saving up for a car. bc im 35 w licsense but no vehicle..im buying skin products, makeup,hair products
just anything that will make me look better and feel better..i actually spend more on online shopping then i do using..
idk how to fight the urges..when i got clean from meth i started overspending.my biological dad got back in my life when i was on meth but didn't know I was using at the time
well he bought me any and everything i wanted..he was out of my life for my whole life and showed up in the hospital when i almost died from pumonia
well when i got clean from.meth..i was in severe withdrawal so i told him im getting clean from meth..he then stopped giving me money and buying me stuff
so i picked up on it and i wish he wouldn't have tried to buy my love bc all it has done is make me materialistic and know that his love isnt real for me..any suggestions on how to control impulsive behavior would help alot..and ty for reading my story..