I love the sight of a well stocked kitchen...
But I hate cooking.
No, that's a lie, I don't. But its the only explanation I could proffer for a long time, not knowing that my depression and anxiety had hijacked this part of me too.
Not that it was hard.
I grew up on microwave dinners, baked beans, and my only intro to cooking was in home ec, baking bread.
I do make a mean loaf. 😉 But I was sent out into the world to survive not knowing a damn thing about proper nutrition.
How to keep my body functioning optimally...
And hadn't really set me up to be optimally healthy going out into the world on my own either...
Which obviously (hindsights a beatch) didn't really assist in helping my management of my issues...
And as they grew worse, then did my ability in being able to eat.
Strong flavours or smells made me wanna vomit. Foods I once loved, I grew to hate.
Going for days without eating. Not purposefully, but with a stomach in knots so often the mere thought of trying to stuff it with food had me closing the cupboards. Or not even thinking about stopping to eat at all.
Or being so drained, the knowing of how much energy is involved in preparing, cooking, eating, cleaning... Had me reaching for the quick-fix "health" bars.
Then there's the added anxiety ontop of screwing the meal up... And the weight of struggling to ever find motivation to ever do anything good for myself...
And it's a thing noone really talks about.
Whether that's down to bad food education- I didn't realise how shockingly bad mine was until I met my fiance (hes a michelin star trained chef)-
Or whether we haven't collectively made the connection of how food can influence our wellbeing and vice versa 🤷🏼♀️
But I wanted to see what you thought...
Have you noticed anything off with your diet, or your attitude toward it with your mental health conditions?
Does this attitude toward food fluctuate depending on how severe your symptoms are?
Do you think food can be a powerful influence over how we feel?
I'd love to hear your thoughts!
#Depression #Anxiety #EatingDisorders #Selfcare #Selflove #Avoidant /RestrictiveFoodIntakeDisorder #Holistic