The Wound and the Need
The Wound and the Need
When your new therapist gives you "homework" on your first visit.
When your new therapist understands you on your first visit.
When you have this feeling your therapist will push you to break free from the reasons of starting therapy in the first place.
.... I think I like this one! I'm ready for this next chapter of my Therapy story.
Now, will you please excuse me while I go do this "homework" while ya'll go back to your regularly scheduled program! 😊
What are some techniques you are doing on this healing journey?
Inner child work.
What are some advice, pointers, & suggestions you'd give someone who is on the journey who feels hopeless. Clueless. Weak. Unmotivated. & any other "negative" adjective.
Pinterest is only doing so much.
Therapy is helping yet some days sessions feel pointless.
Any & all help is greatly appreciated.
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Where Do You Go When Life Crushed You?
What gift would make your inner child happy right now?
I wake up
And everything is okay
I breathe in
I breathe out
My tongue is stuck to the roof of my mouth
Like a spoonful of peanut butter
Impossible to move
My jaw is tense, locked in position
My cheeks are sucked in between my teeth
I guess I'd rather bite my cheeks than clench my teeth
As I attempt to relax
As I attempt to loosen my tongue
The memories flood my mind
"Seen and not heard"
My mouth glued shut at such a young age
"Stop being so emotional"
My heart glued shut at such a young age
"Curiosity is demonic"
My mind glued shut at such a young age
"You're the perfect child"
My self glued shut at such a young age
Why would I need a mouth that can speak
When I am nothing and no one
As my muscles relax
The feelings flood my body
But the pain in my jaw subsides
And my tongue begins to rest comfortably
I'm able to offer my inner child comfort
I offer my inner child validation and love
And I offer my inner child an opportunity to speak
That's what I needed
And that's what I need now
This past week I have had the worst cold (though waiting on COVID and flu test results to confirm). I have struggled with maintaining my mental health while navigating a number of big life changes coming in the next couple of months. My parents have always been really inconsistent with how they respond when I’m sick. I have chronic asthma and so I have to be very careful and mindful of how my lungs react to colds because I’m prone to bronchitis. Despite this, my parents tend to be really impatient and emotionally immature with me. My mother has BPD, and my father is her biggest enabler. So, this isn’t exactly surprising.
Rather against my instincts, while I was sick, I decided to treat myself the way I wanted my parents to treat me when I was younger and sick. I made myself soup, set up a humidifier at four in the morning, and put on all the movies I loved. I took naps and watched Grey’s Anatomy. I felt no guilt for once in just focusing on myself despite the pressure I feel to take care of everyone around me. I’ve heard of the concepting of parenting yourself plenty of times and I’m just starting to practice it. There is something incredibly healing about being able to meet the needs of the inner child I readily refused to recognize this time last year. Part of me is still angry that I have to do this but the larger part of me that is determined and self-reliant is glad I did. Is it weird I have found such peace in such a mundane thing as getting myself through a cold? #innerchild #MentalHealthAwareness
My Intentions 2022- Not resolutions. Therapy Motivated Intentions