Soo I am still very unwell ,at home now on strict bed rest but atleast it's not getting worse.
Spoke to family member today and instantly I know this person triggers me but I was answering to let them know I'm OK anyways and that was it a 4 min phonecall literally had my hands sweating,heart beating through my chest, sharp pains in my head , dry mouth and that feeling I was about to throw up !!!! How she can understand why I'm so ill or getting worse I'm obviously bringing it on myself and making it worse being selfish I should be up and getting on with it ......
Baring in mind I am just out of high dependency unit for covid 2 days ago ,I have pneumonia, sepsis, damage to my liver and my lungs and in general just extremely worn out every bone in my body is agony .....
She's not doing anything for me so not as though I'm getting the attention she seems to think I want ....I haven't asked anyone to do anything for me .I am just trying to get better ....
Honestly cannot believe the past 2weeks I've had still dealing with it all and yet then on top of it a reminder of how horrible one person can actually be ....
Sorry for the rant ...I'm definitely feeling sorry for myself now .....
It's no wonder I prefer being alone....
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