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I use cannabis for arthritis, glaucoma, and my mood disorder and anxiety. Mostly for my mood. It is the only way i have to regulate my anxiety because doctors dont want to prescribe anti-anxiety medicine. I find cannabis more effective than codeine #4 for pain. I have adhd and it doesnt help my attention but i can work through that. Its not a perfect situation but it gives me so much relief to my mood and pain thank goodness. With adhd its a constant search for dopamine. Not like an addict but just to feel normal and motivated to have a productive day. I hate that i feel less than because of this but it is how God made me and i have some wonderful creative and intellectual gifts because of it. Im in grad school with a 99% average in my class now. Im super happy. I used to be super depressed to the point that i weighed 125lbs. Im supposed to weigh 175lbs. Im better now. Partly thanks to cannabis. I hate the stigma around it and my adhd meds. Makes me feel like my docs think Im just trying to get high when i swear all i want to do is function to the best of my ability and not be in so much pain. But at least we are medically legal in my state. We are making progress. I want to work to take the stigma off off adhd and pain meds for people who desperately need them to function. #CannabisCorner #Bipolar #ADHD #productive

I'm trying to be active and productive. I have spent the whole day (now it's 5pm) waiting to reach the point of my to do list where I would have had to study.

Here I am, 10 hours after I woke up, and still haven't done a thing. As yesterday and as the day before.

I've actually found an inspiring spot and have all my stuff in front of me.

The progress today is: I have opened the file I should listen to and focused for 15 minutes. Then I just watch myself opening up pages, daydreaming, thinking, unfocusing. -.-

Good thing: I'm in a public place and they're playing some music - "I Want It All" reminded me of how I used to feel, when I was 11 yo, listening to Queen.

I do have energy and enthusiasm inside. A LOT.

I miss it. I sense it, but I don't feel able to grab it and take it up here.

[People who knew me before remember this, my old self, and maybe something of it it's still visible, I'm not aware].

It's part of me, I could burst and explode, if only this drowsiness would fade away. I have a sun inside which got suffocated through the years and now I can't move. I just follow the days as they go by and this crushes me.

I've tried several strategies, in the past three years, but I can't find what could work for me.

I've tried to concentrate for short periods of time, then take a break, then study again and so on, but it has worked for a few days and then stop.

Same applies to anything else.

(I change my way of studying as my needs do, though, so I don't expect a method to work all the time).

Does anyone have tips to focus on the short term, heading to bigger goals?

(I'm referring to college's exams in particular, in my case!)

How do you manage to mantain a regular studying activity? If you manage to do so, otherwise feel free to comment down below you too, if you wanna share something. :)

How do you like to study?

Btw: "My Fairy King" and "Great King Rat" are two curious songs by Queen I really like. I'm trying to take my light and my younger spontaneous and full-of-enthusiasm self out and these songs resonate in a particular way, now eheh ^^

Thank you for reading - a hug to everyone ~

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Cooked some dishes, garbage to dumpster and recycling out
Now relaxing rest of the day ☺️.
#daily reflections and journal, #check in with me, #positive thoughts, #chronic pain n chronic illnesses,#Fibromyalgia , self care, #Psoriatic and osteoarthritis, ##focused today, #drinkung and eating throughout the day.
Signing off.
Bye mightiest.

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Great day with my caregiver, finished off the day baking gluten free chocolate chip zucchini bread loaves.