No one here anymore?
Hi there. I am not sure if I should be here or not. I'm a mixed bag of conditions. Right now I'm cycling mildly - just a slow up and down. I had been hypomanic for over a year, but it started to blossom and get out of hand, so I asked my p-doc to adjust my meds to bring me down just a tad. Well, I went down a little too much, so now we're trying to raise me a little. He is such an amazing man in how he figures out a cocktail that will work for me. I feel like I'm a burden, but it's his job and he really enjoys it! lol We've been together 17 years now and it's been an amazing relationship. He suffers from mental illness as well and so he's a 'real' person to talk to. He understands the shit I go through, and he always to me like a peer as opposed to a patient. I'm so thankful for him. Other than that, I have an incredible husband, three adult children and two beautiful grandkids. Mental illness has been in my life forever - my youngest memory of feeling 'different' is at 4 years old. I'm turning 54 in a few weeks. That's a long, bloody time to be sick. * sigh * #BPD #BipolarDisorder #CPTSD #Anxiety #SuicidalThoughts #CocaineDependence #SubstanceUseDisorders #CannabisCorner #Suicide