Skin Cancer

Well after weeks of late nights ,long days ,plenty of tears & stress alot of pain and a full day of turning my car into a moving van going back and forth with everything TONIGHT is our first night in our very own Home .my full body is aching and I still have so much to do and sort and now need to do all the unpacking but it feels amazing after everything to be able to eventually have our own house ,the kids are absolutely buzzing especially with all the outdoor space they now have too .It's all been worth it and I really hope now that we have this it will help with my stress and anxiety .
Can't wait to now just try focus on the good get us all settled and start making lots of new memories ♥️♥️

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Well the past few weeks have been hectic, eventually got a home for us but it was a riot had to do all the painting plastering, wallpapering everything myself, Obviously as we've been in temporary accommodation since August after the fire incident everything there was provided for us beds ,white goods furniture etc and all has to be left when we leave so we have nothing basically and having to start over.I was advised by support worker to apply for all of this and support with flooring,beds,whitegoods etc for us as there's none in the house and have been told iys not priority and could be waiting weeks to possibly be told no.So had to use last of my savings to get all the things we need,but still can't get the flooring and we have to move in now as I can't afford to pay the rent for a house were not in and I won't get support with if until we properly move in .So right now I just feel drained I feel like a complete failure and a rubbish mum.I feel everytime something good happens it never works out .my anxiety is so bad with their being no routine at the moment and living out of boxes while I'm mo in everything round in my car big by bit due to the prices of van hire being too much.im using my crutches again as my backs really bad and I jave my skin cancer biopsies coming up in 2 weeks too so I'm just feeling really overwhelmed and stressed and really struggling, I just want the kids to be settled in a home that they feel safe and secure in especially after everything they've been through past 6 months. It's all just a bit much justnow and I can't seem to pick myself up from this low ....
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Well after another full day of painting and decorating I am home in my jammies and chilling with Coco 💜🐶 hoping to get an early night as I am exhausted and will back to the house I the morning to do some more.

Hope you all have a lovely new year 😊 😘

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I'm feeling so content right now , and very positive ☺. To be ending this year decorating our new home and getting it all sorted for us to move in and get settled just feels amazing ♥️Afte rather past 6 months which had been hell & at times I thought things were never going to get better to now be able to get the keys to our very own forever home ,decorate it and get it all sorted for us to move into in a few weeks 😀 getting our little Coco and helping her get better, for the first time in a very long time I am feeling excited and happy .I'm actually enjoying all the decorating even though its alot of hard work myself but it's an amazing feeling seeing it all come together and being able to be excited and look forward now 😊 hopefully this will be the start of an amazing year and things will continue to go good ( even though I'm still really struggling health wise ,but I'm actually dealing with it all alot better now even on the bad days )

Hope you all had a lovely Christmas and a Happy New Year to all you Mighties 😊 😘 ❤

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Well EVENTUALLY got the keys on Friday after alot of being messed around!! Spent full day and night Friday starting with the painting as the full house is a riot and all needs done.Will take a few weeks to get flooring and white goods etc so be a bit before we can move in ,but it's working out as needs alot of work anyway. Today was the second day where ive been able to go round and get on with the painting and decorating and I'm so pleased with how much I've gotten done so far especially because of the state it was in and the fact my back has been really bad recently. It's such an amazing feeling knowing now I have the keys for our forever home and although it's hard and going to take alot out of me I am so excited that it will be worth it to have our own home and that it will be amazing for the kids having their own space ,and garden area.Its actually helping my anxiety a bit because I'm enjoying doing it all and making it into a home for us even though the fact of packing and our flat justnow being a bit all over the place it just feels so positive and I know it will all be worth it.Finally feel excited and positive about things now knowing its all worked out 😁♥️.

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Well this week has eventually just gotten too much for me ,was meant to get the keys to our new house this week and 3 times half hour before due to collect its been cancelled, the house is needing fully painted and is a bit of a riot , I had been planning to start it all right away .Because we're moving to it from temporary accommodation I have to get everything for the house ,all furniture, flooring,paint,everything plus for myself and kids that we need as nothing is provided by the house no white goods,flooring nothing .
I had arranged to get things that were being given away from free by a van and have now lost all them due to them cancelling me getting the keys today ,I ahd bene promising the kids they would se etheir new home each day as I was expecting tk get the keys and to get them excited for it too to only have to be told no again and feel like I'm disappointing them Iver and over again.Its now 3 days to Christmas she's said I will get them today but I am not holding my breath.I had been so excited and looking forward to getting it started and now I just feel completely deflated.The fact of everything that we've bene through past 6 months ,having to be in temporary accommodation and the kids constantly asking how long we're here,feeling frustrated because it's not our home and can't be settled to then for the past 7 weeks be told we're actually getting our own house and going to bed every night this week thinking that tomorrow will be the day we get the keys and can finally have a fresh start to then keep being let down has just gotten too much and ruined all the excitement I had with it .I am praying I get them later today (it's 1am here)
But I have lost all hope that I will which then means it will be another 2 weeks before I would due to the holidays and everything being closed .

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Having a little chilled day with Coco after her bath ♥️so glad she seems to be picking up q bit and feeling more comfortable, has anyone taken in rescue dogs or dogs that were badly treated just looking for any advice or positive stories ♥️

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This is our new little family member Coco 💜🐶 ,she is only 9 weeks old and is so tiny ,she fits in my hand .She was neglected and treated horribly , she had skin issues due to poor care , she was severely underweight and malnourished,she also had infections due to the lack of care and abuse she endured,the vet said had I not taken her and got her the medicine and care she needed she wouldn't have made it much longer. She is still very timid and has a long way to go to be a healthy happy little pup but the difference in her already from just having lots of love and care is massive.She has started getting excited now when I walk into the room, she is coming over to me and snuggles in to fall asleep showing she's started to trust me and feel safe.Her skin has all more or less cleared up and she's showing more signs everyday that she is becoming more alert and more comfortable and settled with us .It breaks my heart that anyone could do this to animals and treat them so horribly.But I am so glad we have her now and hopefully shel be better and healthy in no time & it feels amazing now that we have her and are moving into our new home 💜🐶
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So after an overwhelming and difficult good few months , and also experiencing some of the most challenging things I've ever had too , eventually everything seems to be falling into place .I have cut out anyone who caused negativity in our lives, and anyone who was causing my health to suffer for it. We are getting the keys to our new forever home next week , I am excited about decorating and making it a home for myself and kids .Even though it's going to be a busy and hectic next few weeks I am so grateful that we will be able to be settled in our own home ,there is loads of outdoor space for the kids and they're so excited for it.We also got our new little pup Coco 💜 everything eventually seems to be falling into place for a change and its already had a massive change in my mental health .I am just so relieved after everything we've been through I'm able to give the kids their own home that we can look forward to making new memories in 💜

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The feeling of being so fed up and everything going on right now is just really overwhelming
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